WHY? plz.. tell me.. why muz u leave at this time? its seems lyk everyone ish blaming me on ur death.. i know its been hard on u for me having a bad results.. but ur smokin habit are also causin it.. now it seems lyk my fault... no mattrer how hard i cried for u... i know u will neever return again... i promise to reach the expectation of u.. i promise to take carre of mother.. but did u stay.. no.. u were gone... i juz couldn;t erase my mind off the image when i saw u in bed.. ur face were lyk in hell.. i really really wanted to help u load it.. if i could.. but i couldn't.. maybe lord thinks tat ur suffering too much... its time for u to enjoy in the netherland.. i hope u'll be happy there.. never stress or angry again... neither will u feel those pain again.. but in me... i'll never get wad i wan... i had a lost a great father who i only how how to treasure after his is gone... guys.. if u read this and urs fathers are smoking.. advise them to quit... really... i lost my dad cause of a damn cigarette... do u wanna end up lyk me? its painful k.. to lose him at the AGE OF 15!... and he is 52 only... so young.. how could he live... i would nvr ever forget the greatfulness and even the beatings he gave me.. cos i'll nvr get to experience them again... juz another image in my mind.. T_T