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Tales of a broken guy.
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#Depressionist_Jay
12/05/1991

Im just a human being, fighting for LOVE and PRIDE.
GOD, CANOEING, MATES and FRIENDS are my loves. music and jay are my ADDICTS. while others are just. TRASH.

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Date : Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Time : 9:31 PM
blogging... zzz... lessons are boring today... zzz... after school had mr wee tuition... zzz... den went back home after tamp lor.... zzz... damn sian/... pai seh.... might not blog these DAYS due to EOY... i might work at pizza after EOy.... =)... mr poon ish returning tml... chiong homework ar.... =).... CHEER UP GUYS WHO ARE BEING SAD...



Date : Monday, September 25, 2006
Time : 9:57 PM
never blog for a few days... hahas... pai seh... very tired... and chionging for EOYs... zzz... hmm...
sat....
never do much.... tink i studied and studied...
sun...
big day... hmm... dragonboat competition... hoots... wa seh.. very anxious de lor... hoots... put up a damn tough fight... YEAH! came in second... won the lower sec boys... mine mix team leii... confirm will lose them de lor... but win... only lost to bing they all... den after that went to study wif kai, jia and bao... hahas... in the end not much studying... juz slacking.. cos quite tired lor... den after that went to meet mr wee and yi cheng, ate dinner.... hoots... CONTACTED AGAIN...
today....
damn sian... first period tio gan mr wee liao... very sleepy... zzz... den mr phoa.... stupid eddie... argh... sabo me... argh.... ar... den next ish chinese, eng.... hahas... most funny de... made to read description to friends... desmond made to read.... sabo eddie... hahas... =)
kk.... since she like to delicate post to me... i give u another one back... kk... u tink i want to quarrel wif u??? its actually between u and feli de thing... but muz u drag me in??? u drag me in ok la.... BUT MUZ U INSULT ME???? DID I EVER SWEAR ON U??? no!!! that realli angers me know... calling me names i can take it... INSULTING mE? u tink la... its fun for me to make fun of ur name and call u a pro? u tink itsnice... he never do anything i never mind... as long as u don do it again.... u tink la... u never even apologise know... and u go and ask ppl tp spam my blog... u tink its fun... plz la... i also wan to concentrate for my EOYs lor... u tink i don need to study izzit... wad the.... lala... u tink la... ur blog.... ppl can access so easily... with u changing and changing... think first... is the password script ur... i can sae its not! and ur using without permission from the author.... plz.. ASK ASK ASK can.. .wth... den wanna copy and show him ur so called evidence... u show la... i not scare or wad lor... cos i never do anything wrong or wad... u can't get me into anything... u wan i play wif u... can de...



Date : Friday, September 22, 2006
Time : 9:10 PM
bloggging... zzz... LESSONS ARE GETTING MORE AND MORE BORING. EXAMS ARE GETTING MORE AND MORE STRESSFUL!!... argh... zzz... still stuck on bio... zzz... have touch others... zzzz... argh.... btw, HAPPY BURFDAE YIHAO... his b'dae todae... went out and celebrate... played zhong ji mi ma... loser eat cake wif special ingredients... zzz.. hahas... bing and loewe tio... zzz... den went home first... tio pang seh.... zzz... bought Y generation.... wif jay... and something special... =) Playing wif rules does not mean u break them... u BEND them... making to ur own advantage... OWN RULEZ... No one messes wif me



Date : Thursday, September 21, 2006
Time : 9:12 PM
hahas... hahahs... back to blog... hehe... =)... wa... today fun day..... hnmm.... posting this for elissa.. kk.. i'm making this very specific to u k.... so that u will know its for u... the one in 3e2... for ur info.... on ur friendster blog... wad i mentioned today was NOT meant for u... i also have other things to settle in this class... other than u.... they are also threatening to get things up... so dun misunderstand.... whardever u wan to tell mr poon i don care... cos i tink i did nothing offensive or wad to u or either to mr poon... i live with my heart... not in fears... i will definely have to courage for wad i've done... i'm not so coward... so plz... get ur facts right before complaining...



Date : Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Time : 7:35 PM
dragonboated.... =) wee... competition is on saturday... zzz... hope can win bah.. both team in good lor.. tats wad i can sae... all WORK HARD K...
hmm... today main post ish for chio bu again... hahas... hmm... get all ur so called SPAMMING to mr poon lor... i got nth to sae and lose... lalala.... copy things and show mr poon? my post... nah... i'm not scare... i know wad to do be4 write abt him.... anyway there are so many mr poon in SG... u dreaming izzit... zzz
=)



Date : Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Time : 5:17 PM
o.O back to blog... zzz... juz finish bio remedial.. or should i sae erm... talking session??? hahas... zzz... todays lessons still can make it... but tink maybe failing phy again.. zzz

SHALL TOK ABOUT BLOGGING. hmm... kk... i know shes being viewing my stuffs... go ahead den... view all u wan choi bu... see all u lyk... wonder if mr poon is still reading ppl blog in reservice... hahas.. imagine...

anyone similar or used as a character in the story is just in coincidence... if it were to match... its just for entertainment... no offense... apologise for any inconvience cause.

Background: midway in the jungle, in the midway of firing session

Inspector: commando poon... u'll be in charge of team A... wif them guarding the house and hostages, while team B and i will be in charge of taking u all down anytime

Mr poon: yes sir!

waited too long for them to charge... mr poon decided to take out his laptop and take a look at wads his 3e2 students have to sae without his presence...

Tink! windows Xp starting up....

Opening mozilla firefox...

Reading eddie blog first... cos he always lyk to jiao

Recruit:Sir! Sir!... intruder alert, intruder alert...

Mr poon: indentify enemy....~

Recruit: Inspector lim is spotted wif his team sir. Form formation?

Mr poon: wait la... let me finish the post first... they take time to come one la... also need time to surround us...

Recruit: shall i inform the others

Mr poon: ai ya... chill... dun kan chiong.. dun kan chiong...

out of sudden enemies charged in... change of strategies... trying to catch them off handed...
ARRRR!!! shouted Team B

caught off guarded.... maybe mr poon panicked????

Recruit: Sir, sir! wad to do now... on cold storage mode??? (info: cold storage is juz another name they use for strategies... no one will shout defense and let other team know...

Mr poon: chill... take ur time... take ur time... (switching off his laptop)

juz as mr poon was about to close the laptop... one soldier from Team B mishot and hit right on the bottom of laptop... smoke....

Mr poon: omg... my laptop... zzz

lesson learnt: do not bring laptop to reservice... unless u are willing to sacrifies ur laptop for ur student blog... =)

come come come... lets tok about the chio bu shall we... haiz... she ish so dman bo liao can... plz la... no one bother hacking u... plz... can u have some originality... I"M SO SURE THAT THE PASSWORD SCRIPT DOES NOT BELONGS TO U.... at least have the tendency to ask from the owner can????? no one would bother to ka jiao u plz... i've got subjects to revise... not so bo liao come disturb u....

and plz... plz... use ur common sense to think... wads is a online blog for??? its for ppl to view... if u have a tagboard... ppl can comment on ur entries... if u don wan ppl to view ur blog... PASSWORD it... IF U DON HAVE ONE URSELF.... CLOSE UR BLOG... very easy... if u don wan ppl to know wad u been doing or writing about... lyk SCOLDING AND INSULTING PPL GIGGOLO AND **** ***... close ur blog and write a personal diary... SO NO ONE WOULD KNOW! simple things also need ppl to teach u.... WAD a CHIO~~~~~~~~~~ BU~~~~~~~~~~~~

even ur friend is better than u.. at least she don ka jiao ppl... not so free to entertain pplz that are going to slack....



Date : Monday, September 18, 2006
Time : 8:33 PM
o.O back to blog. zzz... so tired after sleeping still cos of the SORE bah.. zzz... hmm... Lie was found... but no one punished him... forgiven bah.... =) hope he learn lor...

today lessons are so damn bored... can sae sleep thru out wif kai weng except for chemistry... zzz... CHINESE IS SO DAMN BORING!!! zzz... hmm.. after school went out wif bing they all... hmm... they gave liaw $30 dollars for his birthday! lol... cos don know wad to buy for him.. watch movie also cnt... buy disc also donno wad to buy... den wan to rent movie to his hse also cnt... =)

after that went to mini toons to buy the voodoo charm... hehe... not bad looking... =).. while bing bought sumthing which kai weng keep thinkin he buy for doro... see tml lor... whether if its for her... hahas... kai weng... this sentence for u... slowly think whether u wan her not. =) den bought bubble tea..... when home liao lor....

hahas... after tat at iner damn funny... kai weng saw bing go.. tink can tok abt things liao... den he walk back... hahas... den walk back again... =.="'



Date : Sunday, September 17, 2006
Time : 8:48 PM
o.O.. this is the shape of my eyes now... zzz... eye so damn red... zzz... hmm... another day slack... see whard i've done today..

hmm... ytd 3.00 den slp... den wake up went to hello shop and upgraded my plan... my sim card is being deactivated.. plz.. guys.. contact me on mon at 96653674....

zzz... den change my 3g sim card... yeah... after tat went trainings... dragonboating again... hmm... my team not bad... better now... but donno wad happen to bing team... zzz... no coordination lei.. maybe ish my ppl go in ka jiao them...

after tat went to eat seoul garden... zzz... damn full.. wa... heng come out in time.. after i come out the electricity short circuit den no power.. heng... den shop shop a while den come back...

hmm... btw... muz thank roy... u let the big rock in my heart drop for a moment... ty ty ty ty ty ty ty tyty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty ty... =)
lyrics of the day... jay album... still fantasy... heart rain...

Green leaves of the chestnut oak, the white bamboo fence

I really want to tell my her, this place is like a painting 

Last year’s Christmas card, The mustache bits in the mirror 

She started to get out of the picture, I am still pretending not to know 

[She] Promised to make me flower tea, [and] learn how to place knives and forks 

The empty home in the student dormitory 

(I) Wait by the phone, yet she does not appear

The rain in [my] heart pours down 

And [it] doesn't even wet her hair 

Tears smear the concerns on the postcard 

That heart broken feeling doesn’t have jet lag 

The rain in [my] heart pours down 
 
It never got her wet 
 
The cold wind passes by the branches in the yard 

And cooled down the fresh flowers in my hands





Date :
Time : 1:45 AM
zzz... all alone in the night... thinkin tat i really need this second post.... i got something important to announce... as u all know... this blog is created... when we started... since it has ended... its gonna closed down when shes wif someone else... which is going to come true...

don ask me who, its very obvious in our class... she sitting beside him everytime... i admit i'm jealous... i know i do... but wad can i do... i cnt do anything... she doesn;t even feel for me anymore... no matter how hard-working... how faithful i am... shes not returning... zzz...and i don wish to break relations wif the guy in the class... zzz... i donno wad to do... maybe i'll smash things in class... really... zzz

i don mind.... because i'm already a depressionist... living in a world full of darkness... never to return... i'm numb... so i don mind taking another blow... maybe out of sudden... u wont see me the next day... cos life is so unpredictable... juz like my dad... zzz... juz scared she being hurt... from past relationship i seen off tat guy... don wish to sae bad... thats juz the real him... when time ripes... i will ask for the truth.... wad really hurt is.. she is juz so close to me... and i can;t have her... as she brushes pass me... hugging into another soul... if this blog really closes... u all know the meaning... everything shall be gone... but i'll be there waiting... being her guardian angel... if possible.....

maybe the only possible thing u all could do to help me... is for her to read this post...

i really got no mood to study because of all this things that HAPPEN.



Date :
Time : 12:39 AM
bloggin... zzz... its 12.30 am for ur information guys... zzz... down to sickness again... tio infected of sore eyes from kc... zzz... so watery...

today didn;t do much things bah.. slack around... buy things... btw saw clarabel and a gal from damai... zzz.. so pai seh... i look so de weird... zzz... so sianz... tml still got dragonboat training.... muz cocksteer again... zzz....

juz finish a show called the family man... nice show... hmm.. would reconmend u all to watch it... zzz... haiz... over this few days been thinkin about it... exam wanna come le still can;t have her out of my mind for a while... JUZ A WHILE. zzz... wonder if she'll reject me again... zzz... roy... go ahead... zzz...



Date : Friday, September 15, 2006
Time : 9:16 PM
blogging =).

even though today no training.. still so damn tired... hmm... lessons today?? normal la... only chi got misunderstanding nia... den mr poon going off for reservice... good luck to him.. hahas... =)

so guilty... today actually intended to go for the bio remedial.. den they want to send ritz off... den wan to go de.. cos cancel liao.... zzz... but in the end go watch pulse... wa... damn damn hiong lor the movie... zzz... so scary... don buy webcam liao... hahas... =)

so damn annoyed... during movie receive call from the lampchop... zzz.. call call call... u change change change password... how i know.. siao ar.... wad the... zzz... plz la... don be a copycat... can grow up... wad the... plz la... u wan go ahead lor... i never do anything wrong... i not so bad to used someone else name in the class and scold VULGAR... he is now so dman irritated with u.. betrayed ur classmates get to get a spam... plz.. grow up... admit for wad u have done... like kevin? hahas =)

den after tat went play bb... hoots... hiong... we win... hahas.. zzz.. den went to bubble tea... irritate her lor... if she wans the war.. go ahead... i won't mind... INSULT ME SOMEMORE. come la... taunt me somemore...



Date : Thursday, September 14, 2006
Time : 7:39 PM
blogging.. again... zzz... so tired... being rowing and dragonboating for lyk 3 days le.. so dman tired... zzz... lets see whard happen today...

nt much... hmm chi, pe and stuffs... slack in pe class... only play one bb match... den eat... eng class... slack a bit... mr gabriel was hiong... because of me and kc, the whole class have to stand up and read the passage... zzz... pai seh ar class.. zzz... maths was boring... 3 periods... zzz... haiz... zzz... physics study hour... slack thru out... cos heart wasn;t dere to study... something is to attractive... still. for 3 months le... it still does not fade...

zzz... haiz... donno wad to sae la.. juz maybe have a weird feeling that she has another one in the class??? donno la... zzz... haiz... i donno wad to sae... i'm juz maybe too attracted to her... zzz.. don understand why her feelings will fade... zzz... maybe i'm going for my 2nd attempt after exams.. WAIT FOR ME.



Date : Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Time : 7:26 PM
blogged. zzz. came back from dragonboating. so damn damn tired. become the stear man... whatever they call it... zzz... first time... direction lyk sai lor... at look at me... dun lyk tat la... i also first time... cool la... dragonboating... but my team lyk sai lor... all dun wan to give in strength... zzz. hope they improve next week bah... epecially DERRICK LIM.... zzz. hmm.. today lessons?? as boring... gonna fail my chem again lor.. wt... haiz... hmm... zzz.. think mr poon gonna handle the case after exams bah... lyk he a bit the no actions yet... wait and see lor... ppl.. plz don spam and be so childish and use other ppl names... its so obvious when u got the same ip address using diff names... zzz. btw... hmm... nowadays lyk noticing me more often lei... zzz.. anyhow think again.. zzz... haiz... wonder if she would be lyk wad kian chong sae... give me another chance... zzz.. that wad i hope la... but not against her wish lor... and i really don wish to end so fast lyk last time... zzz.. i would rather wait longer to have a everlasting relationship... zzz =(
xin li de yu qing peng er xia, qu zhan bu si ta de fa...
the rain in my heart started raining heavily, but it seems lyk its not even wetting her hair...



Date : Monday, September 11, 2006
Time : 7:38 PM
blogging... hmm... first day of school... so sianz... haiz... hair check... heng i never tio... den chem lessons.. argh... magical moment... mr wee scolding her i was turning back to take a look for a moment... den she out of sudden sat her eyes on me.... den quickly turned back... zzz... chinese lessons was boring, ye lao shi gone for a week to mark papers, the new zhang lao shi was ok.. but she her not very happy wif doro... cos they dere toking to eddie they all... zzz... dem rest of the lessons ok la... only mr gabriel quite hiong only... zzz... zzz.... jay album was so damn hear the more lyk it more... zzz.. especially white windmill and heart rain.... zzz..



Date : Friday, September 08, 2006
Time : 11:52 PM
blogging time... hmm... juz came back from farewell part for ritz... hmm... hehe... so much fun today... kk... morning wake up... go maths remedial... yeah.. see her! few days bah.. hahas... but i won't be lyk lamechop lor... GOD DAMN IT!! I MISS HIM!!! hahas... i never sae anyone ar... if sentence or story is close to real life story... might be juz pure coincidence..

kk.. after maths slove prob lor... mr poon will look in the matter... return me justice! ar... zzz...

den after tat went bedok inter and ate wif wen they all... ar... they damn lame... weather hot go ntuc blow aircon.. den inside there stone... entertained dem... den went to cineleisure to meet up wif yanling and xiuting

zzz.. i overshot one stop... go orchard... lazy to walk to somerset... den i wait for 7 mins for the train... zzz.. den bought movie tickets.. SINGAPORE DREAMING... damn damn nice... change into outing clothes... cos i look damn weird in school PE pants

MOVIE REVIEW

TiTLE:SINGAPORE DREAMING

RATING: 5 stars!! MUZ WATCH
STORY LINE: sae a bit la... its abt this typical family of a son and a daughter... daughter married to a guy, selling insurance... son was wif a galfriends who was waiting for him for 2 years from his studies from america... his sis, dad and galfriend spent a fortune on him to go on study oversea... its actually about how singaporeans are chasing for the perfect... THE 5Cs... u know la.. credit cards, condo.. all this... den son came back... dad ask him pick no for TOTO... won 2 million... dad got an extra C be4 getting his country club membership interview... died of heart attack... story continues... toks abt the problems sg ppl faces.. and how it ended... its nice la... i actually cried when watching... cos i see the funeral part reminds me of things la...

Funny part in show: dad going for country club membership, ask mother to try on him.. testing testing... but mother donno ang moh.. but dad insist...

DAD: Never mind la... juz ask a few question.. i'll ans u back in eng..(in hokkien)

MOM: *erm* li jia bao bei? eaten mah???
DAD: ai ya.. other than eating, can ask others?(in hokkien)

MOM: *erm* as mom ish best at cooking herbal tea.. ai yum liang teh mai?

still got quite a lot la... but don wan write... cos scare post too long...

after movie den went to choose present for ritz... bought him a ring... according to my hand... and i pass by sembawang music... JAY DISC ISH OUT! argh... ai ting morning call they sae mon den come... den i see come le... qi piian wo de gan qing..

went to ritz party... quite fun... we actually lyk stone around... cos not much friends... and scare they push us down the pool...hahas...

know a new friend.. =) cheston... dunno he how old la... look lyk kai chuan lei.. but he ish totally of a better character than him... hahas

bid farewell to them... cos won;t be seeing them much.. especially ritz... wonder if he can cope ALONE in states... his pursuing his dream of being a drummer... hmm.. how i wish i can do tat... zzz... hope u do well in states.. RITZ!! make us feel proud to have a friend lyk u!!!

den took cab back to tamp... chiong for jay disc.. yeah... got it juz in time!!!

ALBUM REVIEW

ARTIST: JAY CHOU

ALBUM: Yi Ran Fan Te Xi (Still Fantasy)

Rating: 5 Stars!!! MUZ MUZ BUY!!!

Songs are nice... include in a lot nice songs... juz listen... don wan sae much.. cos i wan u all to buy!!!



Date : Thursday, September 07, 2006
Time : 8:46 PM
back to blog... zzz kk... pai seh... for those who did not know who those ar? the pics tat i juz post... its fan yi chen and tong en... my bad for not telling u all la... zzz... blink of eye and holidays are going to be over... zzz still got homework haven finish... hahas... tml gonna be a fun day man.. bye! =)



Date : Monday, September 04, 2006
Time : 10:12 PM
back to blog.. back to blog...

kk... sees wad happen in the past few days...

hmm... fan yi chen... tong en event?

zzz.. don wish to tok abt it... i next time den post the pics and vids for euu guys...

write write write... hmm... its has been a long time since i ever blog on this first blog...

let me think... oh ya... actually blog was closed last year... den till the soul of my body came alive lor... u know la... even though she is not here... its lyk i'm mentioning a lot abt her...

our beautiful memories... the time we had.... the heartache story...

hmm... mid year exams.. very soon going to year end...

this blog also pei me thru the darkests moment of my life... passing away of my dad...

haiz... donno wad to sae la... juz tat this blog has been thru a lot wif me.. both thini and thick... times when i'm angry.... sad...

i won't event mind if this blog never ever has any visitors... i don ask for fame... juz a person to pei me thru the times when i need...
NO matter wat... this blog is always here for me...

lots of things also hab been happening these few days... ppl backstabbing, did sumthing wrong... haiz... juz donno wad to sae...

maybe i'm truly a Depressionist... the one and only u would ever find.... ... its damn nice.. haiz... so sweet the song

u can mostly ask my friends... they would almost never ever see me frown in front of them.... almost none.... cos i don wish them to be worried over me....

they had a lots of things going thru their mind... and to worry abt mi..?

tats the last thing i would ever wan den to do...

i would always cheer them up... do sumthing stupid or spoil my image.... juz to get a smile on their face...

and i hate to see girls sad... cos i tink a guy last wish is to ever see a girl cry in front of them

ESPECIALLY HER... i WITNESSED it.. NOT BEING ABLE TO DO ANYTHING...

i don mind getting nicknames lyk being black, big headed

i don mind... as its keeps ppl happy... and they go don over their limit...

and i hate to see girls sad... cos i tink a guy last wish is to ever see a girl cry in front of them

NEVER MIND... my favourite line

i'm juz lyk being born a clown... born to make ppl happy.. inject smiles into their live...

sure.. i agree... i'm born to make ppl happy... but wad abt me?

i'm juz lyk a human... needing care and love...

maybe i born and going to live on till the last breath of my life..

#Depressionist_JAy WAnnaBe

Living In a woRld of DepressioN, Full Of dArkness...



Date : Saturday, September 02, 2006
Time : 11:43 PM

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Date :
Time : 1:38 PM
back to blog.... zzz... lots of things happen around these few days... i been left thinkin... thinkin..

i shall not blog about my personal life... cos i think it'll be bored to keep blogging abt those things la....

shall be serious and tok about this bah....

over these few days... tots haven been runnning wild in my mind... how i have being as a person for 15 years... how have i treated my friends and being wif them....

i think i have failed doing all these.... being a total failure....

i just a person who ish being bigmouth and not able to keep secrets with the temptations to tell... i'm bad to almost everyone... in a case or wad... hurt them...

i've failed as being a filial son.... i have send my dad to grave... haiz... zzz... seems lyk everytime my results are back is time for him to suffer...

i'm truly sorry for those who i have hurt... very sorry.... i'm trying to change.. hope u all forgive me....


I HATE BACKSTABBERS.... TRUST U TO KEEP SUMTHING U GO PAO TOH ME... WAD F*** DEN DON KNOW THE STORY LA.. KAYPO!