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2010-01-24T15:19:00.012+08:00

okay okay, really nothing better to do. shall blog more about the meet ups. I gonna say my 18 years of school holidays this is the one whr i meet most of my cliques. haha(:

Damai Pri School Gathering.

Haha after much organising by me. I finally got many back for a dinner together, thanks for showing up eh. So much memories in that 6 years(: there was so much fun and laughter throughout the whole night man(: meet up soon again alrightts(:

SEVENTH Gathering.

Haha finally another time together for the SEVENTH, haha we're so busy nowadays that we hardly can meet eh. So happy that everyone is back on again. As usual, disturbing the one who always leave early. Lesson learnt ahha(: Walk around bugis, ate at hip hop diner(:

Okay next up timber @ old school with oliver, naiy and christine. Haha as usual, timber always has been filled with games, fun and laughter, along with good music(:

Next next christmas celebration!!! haha didnt take any photos but i'll just briefly descibed what happen. 08s08 gathering at gabriel house for dinner, it was a bbq dinner filled with pool table, mahjong table, gonna go back early because next day was 2 star course! haha(:

New Year Countdown.
Gathering of OG 16 again but this time it was without oliver as he is happily enjoying himseld in Macau. Went to dempsey hills for dinner at DOME. It was my first time there haha, place there is v. atas as u can see damn many branded cars there. Haha, have ice-creams at B&J and HTH talk at Harry's(: Den went over to Marina square to meet bryan chan yao fu to see fireworks with goh nai-ying haha. Saw kath there(:

Still many many more events to come so stay up for my blog as wanna let someone see this first(:

2009-12-15T23:23:00.016+08:00

blog blog blog
rant rant rant.

back for prom blogging and trying to keep up to date. haha been pretty busy recently.

7th december
prom prom prom, slept the whole morning laze around in the bed only to find out that it was 11+ alr. okay got up and started using the comp as always decided to laze around since its prom, left the house like ard 3 plus something to go for hair trimming, met up with naiy and den set off on 36 to douby ghaut, everyone seems to be getting there on their own transport and so i dont believe and took 190 there, bus was crowding and by the time i alight, im like a toot on the road, heng got my 5800 gps, guided me around making me walk up and down - -

run up the hill with my blazer on, got there, thanks goodness door haven close, kq scare me that the door is closing, okay cut short, got there, saw li ru they all, and settle down after we got our vouchers and discounts with our sticky sweets.

well table kinda boring, so we shall skip that, mainly took photos during band performance and prom king and queen scenarios was entertaining haha(: Before prom night ends was rushing around to take photos with many people. Den got up the chartered bus to supperclub.

Well everyone was slacking on their nice beds before people started spicing up the dance floor, went down to dance a bit but left cause it was way too damn crowded, and way too much loser drinker puking everywhere man.

Here are the photos, rest are up on facebook(:

Me and Kaiqin

Me and Limmy(:

China Trip Gang.

Cocker tall andrew

Jorji(:

Guan yu(:

08s08 guys(:

08s08(:

Limmy on interview(:

sisong and liru(:

Okay next up i'll name events that take place between 8 december to 24 jan. Was way too much mia alr haha.

Canoeing.
Okay mainly for canoeing i was helping damai to train up for their inter-school competition. Did up many things for them hope they appreciate it and use it well. General improvement in training attitude. Hope the goalsetting really spur them up.

2 star kayaking course. 25 - 27 dec
Yea thanks to 2 star course i generally down colour tone to turn darker again. Okay look at the date it is very weird. Our dear instructor is willing to do it on christmas, haha can see that he dont really celebrate christmas haha. Make many new friends there, including canoiest from hwa chong, and people who are in uni and a couple from Iraq ( i tot they were europeans at first) (: 2 star wasnt that hard from what i expect it to be. Just to cont from what they left u on 1 star. Which i did it like 6 years ago. Haha. Got my cert finally on 24 jan haha. (: quite a achievement for my holidays. Gonna thank mr sng for his teaching and sponsoring also(:

SCM.
woah okay this one is like a very last min decision. haha didnt train up as much for that. Well got a 14th place out of like 50+ boats, caught up with a few boats including mr kieu(: SCM wasnt as bad as my year 1, i capsize on the portage area! manage to do quite well i feel. But i was greeted with a blue-black nail by cilfton lee. LOL

Okay picture will do the talking(:

SCM 2010

2 star kayaking(:

okay more to come next time. I'll promise u guys music blog is up before i enlist(:

2009-12-03T21:28:00.009+08:00

Finally, the end is near, not near. ITS HERE.
haha i can see all hell has alr break loose for everybody, bio people has also finsih their paper.

30th december.
okay paper was done, and we headed done for some lanning due to a lack of movie to watch. Followed by dinner at brewerkz, order the cherry fruitbrewz which was quite as i expected as it doesnt have much taste of cherries, but its better than tiger(: the food was okay, acceptable but the price wise erm please consider before eating them, but the fish and chips is nice, u guys can give it a try(:

1st december.
wake up in the morning and got up to bedok reservoir for my first damai training cum coaching session, its been like 8 months ever-since i touch reservoir paddle and 2 years ever since i touch my regatta 3(: feeling was okay, was rowing with a sec 1 though, correcting her strokes and things like that. well as u guys know first session was quite a pain as stamina wasn't that good.

Den headed down to meet deborah, watched 2012 and got back home to tabao beef horfun for my mum before i get a last minute outing to stay over at kekang house. Watch some movies before falling asleep at 4 am, in which i woke up late to meet naiying(:

Incredible shopping spree as we walk the whole marina square, to far east, to ion, to wisma, and then back to marina again. And incredibly i only bought a pair of shoes, which im quite satisfied as i think its worth the price(: Follow by which i went down to pioneer to meet my 'darling' and wai kit for dinner, its been v. long since i seen them sia haha. nvr change much, still the same old jokers, head back home and almost late for training the next day.

3rd december
almost late for training, but still on time(: got down into the water with jia yi again, felt better as her strokes improved along with mr sng compliment(: rush back home and got down to cathay to meet ming they all for zombieland. The movie was damn funny man(: can give it a try for those who love humour, the movie is kinda like L4D 2, after that got a free green tea latte from STARBUCKS. Went down to Marina to get my shirt and pants from zara and JL, im still missing of a blazer/vest, tie and a buckle):

4th december.

finally a day that allows me to sleep till the late morning of a day. Woke up and slack around to find out that its time for gym @ damai. Well got there did my stuffs and work out a bit. Went back home and rush down to meet naiy. She was bloody early, 1.5hrs earlier than me. LOL. Got to bugis village to shop, walk around, seen nothing much matching to my shirt and pants, den went to iluma to look for more good deal, but nothing much turn out well in the end. Got back to bugis village again, this time to see PRIS and MICHELLE!!! They said wanyi were behind them but well didnt manage to catch up with her though ): (and just play with my hair like a toy lor PRIS TAN!) haha.

The 2nd trip back to bugis village was a fruitful one(: messy had quite a few good ones, eventually found my tie buckle and blazer there, took the blazer instead of the vest because it gave me a jay chou feel! haha. bill turn out to be 100.70, and the uncle was like die die trying to get me to spend till 120 bucks to get a member with 10% off within the next yr, dont really quite find it worth so have to turn him down in the end. Headed down to starbucks for my green tea latte(: i going to be addicted to it soon(:

5th december
training as usual in the morning for damai @ bedok reservoir, team discipline is getting better, but still space for improvement, hope it'll cont to stay this way. Went back home, slack off a bit with a afternoon nap before i head down to central to meet yvonne and friends. Oh yea btw i saw kenneth twice in the day! in the morning was at the market with his mum and at night with his friend?? * raised eyebrow* haha seems like there's much to be talked about in the upcoming 21st december of the SEVENTH(:

Went to check out a lot of clubs, rebel, zirca, and lunar. Rebel was more of a R&B style, saw rum there was his friends, but wasnt sure whether its him no i didnt talk to him much. Zirca was more of a ang moh club, there was so many ang mohs there, but didnt attract much people there. Lunar was definitely a nono for many of us here, it is so adult, and many of gays there, bloody hell i was hugged by an indian, and i think he is gay!!! Sent yvonne back home before i slept like a pig and wasted my sunday off to stand by for monday(:

blog more abt my prom trip and what i've been doing this few weeks. Sorry guys music blog is still under construction(:

Photos from zouk and kongy hse bbq

picture i edited for kong(:

SAJC GSC CLASS OF 2009

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Dinner at Brewerkz

2009-11-29T14:16:00.003+08:00

sorry for the late entry. was way to busy with a lot of things recently.

Wednesday.
Got up early, did some mcq and left for lan gaming with kekang joshua and walter. Surprisingly kekang got there ON TIME. So he waited for 1 hr. We headed down to paradiz centre to play our good old Command And Conquer Generals Zero Hour(: i still gonna say that out of all the strategy base games EA has offered gamers, C&C still kick ass despite new release of Red Alert 3 and Tiberium Wars. Reminder that C&C 4 is heading out soon into the gaming store of a another installement of battle between the GDI and NOD.

We tried out the new L4D 2. haha sorry for being slow here, this is my first time coming into contact with L4D. I would say they have succeed it bringing the zombie frenzy into gaming, its just like CS, where u whack the hell out of the tonnes of zombie, but u work it team tgt, u cant afford to have ppl solo-ing and asking u to help them when they're down, like kekang!

Got back home, ate my dinner and went out to meet kq they all for zouk. haha when we reach there we're like some gon du dunno where to buy tickets, and everyone is v. hum ji looking at the bouncer all. While eventually got in at 9am, didnt know it was mambo night. haha ivan was totally different before it started and after it started, haha. Eventually everybody ended on the dancefloor, ppl like kaiqin and ming are dancing(: Saw a lot of saints there, people like guoxiang and delia. Haha, tried the jaggerbomb and vodka with lime. Quite nice drinks though. And we dance all the way till 4am.

Headed to kaiqin house to slack and wait for first bus. Was damn embarassing cause we woke kq parents up. haha. Bloody Brocoili - -
Anyway headed back home, wash up a bit and went down to tamp to meet joshua and walter for swimming at tampines(:

Imba good luck, did our intervals and i got both legs cramp. Mr Cho. told me that it was due to the lack of electrodes in my legs = salt(:

Den down to IKEA for their addiction to swedish meatball, damn got scam for my christmas meal thought they have swedish meatball with the main dish but it was small baked potato that look like swedish meatballs(:

Follow by IT fair at EXPO hall 5 and 6. Mange to grab some good deals. 119 for a 500gb external hard drive 2.5 inches. (: Follow by me rushing all the way down to get bbq food and to kong zi house(:

Down to Kongy house we when have our 1st official gsc bbq. haha, kuang-zai was nice. haha hope we can gathering more often next time(:

Update u guys more of the recent prom shopping and outings(:

2009-11-25T09:02:00.002+08:00

back guys.
back to blog finally. after all those sweat and tears, its finally left down to 1 more paper(: really glad that its all over, can really like that weights are loaded off the shoulders.
haha. had a fun day yesterday, went to ming house to play, movie and went for dinner at breekz at causeway point. Their food is so getting more and more not worth it, chicken chop and potato salad for 14.90++ thats expensive man.
Time ahead is tightly planned. Later going out lan with kekang and walter all. Going to zouk tonight too.
Tml will be a busy day ahead. Will be going for a early morning swim, follow by lunch at IKEA den towards EXPO for IT fair, hope i can get a fairly cheap external hard drive for like 75 bucks for 320gb? den gonna rush down to collect bbq food at night at kong house(:
Friday i shall be free once and for all to study(:
Saturdays shall be the big day for TEAM TP! Best wishes for them to do well for their POLY-ITE race(:

As promise, the music blog is now under construction. I will be doing up playlist of the week, and good album intro(:

2009-10-25T16:12:00.002+08:00

yea guys. back for a quick moment.
here to update u guys on the music blog.
i've decide to create a separate music blog to cater to the hunger music needs of my friends.
this blog will generally be covering the taste of indie/ electronic/ pop/ rock/ metal music.
very different from what u hear from the radio.
well firstly i gonna say i cant assure u that the music i like would be of u liking.
but i would try my best the get the best music for you everytime.
i would be reviewing through the 30GB worth of song in my itunes library.
it will either be a daily/ weekly basis after my As.
so stay tune to the establishement of this blog(:
really hope there is more hits for the music blog than my personal blog.
cause it has alr reached 17k visitors(:

for now.
those pop-gaga-lover, please catch gaga latest single "bad romance" on youtube.
her album would be out soon.

and avenged sevenfold FANS!!! they on their way on working on a new album so be patient(:

Your same as ever.
Depressionist Jay

2009-09-06T17:46:00.000+08:00

just info for people taking their a levels.
http://www.seab.gov.sg/SEAB/aLevel/syllabus/school/2009_GCE_A.html
to see ur subject codes
eg. chem h2 -> 9761/ 01 [9761 is ur subject code, 01 is ur 1st paper (MCQ)]

http://www.seab.gov.sg/SEAB/aLevel/2009GCEATimetable.pdf
to see ur exam timetable.

10 nov maths h2 paper 1 2pm to 5pm
11 nov gp h1 paper 1 and 2 8am to 12pm
12 nov chem h2 paper 3 8am to 10am
13 nov maths h2 paper 2 8am to 11am
17 nov chem h2 paper 2 8am to 9.30am
19 nov physics h2 paper 2 2pm to 3.15pm
23 nov gsc h1 paper 1 and 2 8am to 10.15am
24 nov phy h2 paper 3 8am to 10am
30 nov phy h2 paper 1 2pm to 3.15pm

ANNOUNCEMENT: 30 NOV 3.15.00pm is time for PARTY!!!!

2009-09-05T15:01:00.001+08:00

u gonna see this.

2009-09-05T13:23:00.001+08:00

i swear im gonna breadown soon.
really.

2009-08-28T12:51:00.000+08:00

raising your kids is just like cooking soup.
u cant be too hot on them.
u cant give in too much.
u cant stir them to hard.
u cant keep looking over them, the more focus u are, the more worried that it might be bad, it stricter u get on the taste of the soup.

IN THE END, U JUST SCREW IT UP MORE.

I SWEAR IM NOT GOING TO RAISE KIDS LIKE MY OWN PARENTS.

HAVE A TASTE OF YOUR OWN MEDICINE MUM.

2009-08-22T10:09:00.000+08:00

new blogspot of music/entertainment/movies site coming soon.
introducing good music, movies and much more.
please give me a tag on my board to comment in favour of this blog.
it would be up after my As.

Good music shouldnt be keep alone, share it with the world.

2009-08-15T20:40:00.000+08:00

our work(:

2009-07-25T00:34:00.004+08:00

Dont you cry.
My dear little girl.

In the middle of the night,
a world shatters,
a heart trembles.

Enduringly you came, and unknowingly he left.
A little girl with the most innocent look.
Just got brought down to the bottom of the earth.
The walk, the wait, and the story.
Has never left me by.

A rock off the mountain, may seem so important.
Like a jewel among the stones.
But beneath the moutain lies a ugly stone.
With just a true and simple heart.
Waiting for his time to come.

So let the tears run down the river,
Washing the pain away.

Looks can be deceiving, and it hurts to see you in this state.
He wasnt there, wasnt there at all when u needed him.
All he ever gave, was his world for you to live.

A jerk i can say,
nothing more, nothing less.

At the end of the tunnel,
it always leads to a new road, a new way, a new life.
So walk through the darkness, the storm, the cloudy sky.
With the ugly stone willingly to be the guiding step to lead you through.

Little baby don't you cry,
You'll feel better by and by.

The fine and sunny day, will just return back to you.
For you are my sunshine,
my only sunshine.

#_Depressionist_Jay
2009

Credit to http://mydreamsmywords.blogspot.com/ for the picture(:

2009-07-20T21:41:00.002+08:00

bad bad news.
blog is going to be MIA for 4 months.
All thanks to A levels.

well, you keep u guys happy for the 4 months.
i created 1 mega playlist for u guys to be entertain throughout(:

Hope u guys like it.
They are of my Collection!!!

#_Depressionist.

Genre: Pop/Indie/Electronic/Alternative/Hard Rock/Blues

PLAYLIST.
1.Leaving On A Jetplane - Aerosmith Ft. Chantal Kreviazuk*
2.Breathe (2am) - Anna Nalick*
3.We Are The Reason - Avalon*
4.Dear God - a7x*
5.Slipped Away - Avril Lavigne*
6.The Luckiest - Ben Folds
7.How Deep is Your Love - The Bird And The Bee*
8.No Matter What - Boyzone*
9.One Last Cry - Brian Mcknight*
10.Back At One - Brian Mcknight
11.Dark End Of The Street - CatPower*
12.Ashes And Wine - A Fine Frenzy*
13.Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy*
14.Unhearted - Juliet Simms
15.So Close - Jon McLaughlin*
16.Thinking Of You - Katy Perry
17.I Wonder - Kellie Pickler*
18.Somewhere Only We Know - Keane*
19.Human - The Killers*
20.Dance With My Daddy - Kim Hyung Joong*
21.Byul - Kim Hyung Joong*
22.The other side of the world - KT Tunstall
23.Under the weather - KT Tunstall*
24.You Dont Know I Love You - Kim Hyung Joong*
25.My Moon My Man - Feist
26.Gatekeeper - Feist*
27.Lloyd I'm Ready To Be Heartbroken - Camera Obscura*
28.Tears For Affairs - Camera Obscura*
29.Come Back Margaret - Camera Obscura
30.Dory Previn - Camera Obscura
31.The False Contender - Camera Obscura*
32.Let's Get Out Of This Country - Camera Obscura*
33.Country Mile - Camera Obscura
34.If Looks Could Kill - Camera Obscura
35.I Need All The Friends I Can Get - Camera Obscura
36.Razzle Dazzle Rose - Camera Obscura
37.French Navy - Camera Obscura*
38.The Sweetest Thing - Camera Obscura*
39.Swans - Camera Obscura*
40.Forests And Sands - Camera Obscura*
41.Careless Love - Camera Obscura*
42.Lovebug - Jonas Brothers*
43.Pda (we Just Dont care) - John Legend*
44.A Dustland FairyTale - The Killers
45.Homesick - Kings of Convenience*
46.Gravity - Whitest Boy Alive
47.Burning - Whitest Boy Alive*
48.Seattle - The Hot Toddies
49.We're From Barcelona - Im From barcelona*
50.Good Days Bad Days - Kaiser Chiefs
51.Timeless - Justin Guarini & Kelly Clarkson*
52.The Show - Lenka
53.Bring Me Down - Lenka
54.Skipalong - Lenka
55.Dont Let Me Fall - Lenka
56.Anything Im Not - Lenka
57.Knock Knock - Lenka
58.Dangerous And Sweet - Lenka
59.Trouble Is A Friend - Lenka
60.Live Like Your Dying - Lenka
61.Like A Song - Lenka*
62.We Will Not Grow Old - Lenka
63.Unbeautiful - Lesley Roy*
64.Eddie My Love - The Like Young*
65.Still Alive - Lisa Miskosky*
66.Im Good Im Gone - Lykke Li*
67.Paper Planes - M.I.A*
68.Zookeeper's Boy - Mew*
69.Electric Feel - MGMT
70.Kids - MGMT*
71.Time To Pretend - MGMT*
72.Pieces Of What - MGMT
73.Running Away - Midnight Hour*
74.You Are Not Alone - Michael Jackson*
75.Black Or White - Michael Jackson
76.Float On - Modest Mouse*
77.Modernism 101 - The Muttering Retreats
78.Nobody - Ne-yo
79.Mad - Ne-yo*
80.Part Of The List - Ne-yo*
81.Nobody - Wondergirls*
82.Get Lucky - The New Young Pony Club
83.Hiding In the Staircase - The New Young Pony Club
84.Ice Cream - The New Young Pony Club*
85.The Bomb - The New Young Pony Club*
86.Jerk Me - The New Young Pony Club
87.The Get Go - The New Young Pony Club
88.Talking, Talking - The New Young Pony Club
89.Grey - The New Young Pony Club
90.F.A.N - The New Young Pony Club
91.Tight Fit - The New Young Pony Club
92.Amaranth - Nightwish
93.I'll Remember You - No Secrets
94.5 Years Time - Noah And The Whale*
95.Wild Young Hearts - The Noisettes*
96.For Our Elegant Caste - Of Montreal*
97.You're Gonna Go Far, Kid - The Offsprings*
98.Brighter Than Sunshine - Aqualung
99.Brainstorm - Arctic Monkeys
100.A Certain Romance - Arctic Monkeys
101.Mardy Bum - Arctic Monkeys*
102.Thats When I Love You - Aslyn
103.Firefly - ATeens
104.We Are The Reason - Avalon
105.D.A.N.C.E. Mstrkrft - Justice*
106.Intelligentactile 101 - Jesca Hoop*
107.The Blues Are Still Blues - Belle & Sebastian*
108.Be Gentle With Me - The Boy Least Likely To
109.Listen To Your Body Tonight - Black Kids*
110.I'm Not Gonna Teach Your Boyfriend How To Dance With You - Black Kids
111.Look At Me (When I Rock Wichoo) - Black Kids*
112.This City (is Bound to Do Us in) - Milk The Bee
113.Uncalibrated - Bridges and Powerlines
114.All The Weird Kids Know - Built By Snow
115.Patins - C.S.S
116.Alala - C.S.S
117.Meeting Paris Hilton - C.S.S
118.Off The Hook - C.S.S
119.Alcohol - C.S.S
120.Music Is My Hot Hot Sex - C.S.S*
121.Air Painter - C.S.S
122.Bruises - Chairlift*
123.How I Could Just Kill A Man - Charlotte Sometimes
124.I Fell In Love With The DJ - Che'nelle Feat Baby Cham
125.Ua-a-a! - Cheese People*
126.The City Is At War - Cobra Starship*
127.Guilty Pleasure - Cobra Starship
128.Kiss My Sass - Cobra Starship
129.Happy Up Here - Röyksopp*
130.Backstreet Lovers - The Crookes*
131.Painter In Your Pocket - Destroyer
132.Burn Bridges - The Grates
133.Tick Tick Boom - The Hives
134.In The Hospital - Friendly Fires
135.The General Specific - Band Of Horses*
136.Life In Technicolor II - Coldplay*
137.Life Boat - Miranda Lee Richards*
138.Pop The Bubbles - The Parallelograms*
139.Sleepyhead - Passion Pit*
140.Pull Shapes - Pipettes*
141.Silver Lining - Rilo Kiley *
142.Long Distant Love - Scissors For Lefty*
143.Another Happy New Year - Spirit Of The West*

Songs with (*) are really good songs.
Most of the songs can be heard from youtube, if not feel free to pm me at my tagboard(:

2009-07-12T12:02:00.002+08:00

and now for the review of movies now showing and upcoming movies to come(:
1st up.

I love you beth cooper.

Rating 2/5

1: Dont bother to watch it.
2: Maybe watch it somewhere else but not the cinema.
3: Worth a visit to the cinema.
4: A second screening would be still exciting.
5: A GOOD movie.

Plot: A nerdy valedictorian proclaims his love for the hottest and most popular girl in school – Beth Cooper (Panettiere) – during his graduation speech. Much to his surprise, Beth shows up at his door that very night and decides to show him the best night of his life (taken from IMDB)

Heres the trailer.

Comment: A typical and overuse of idea of previous teenage movies. Dont bother.

Next Up: Obesessed

Rating 1/5

1: Dont bother to watch it.
2: Maybe watch it somewhere else but not the cinema.
3: Worth a visit to the cinema.
4: A second screening would be still exciting.
5: A GOOD movie.

Plot: A successful asset manager, who has just received a huge promotion, is blissfully happy in his career and in his marriage. But a temp worker starts stalking him, all the things he's worked so hard for are placed in jeopardy (Taken from IMDB)

Trailer.

Comment: U know why the rating is so bad? First, the plot isnt good, and beyonce acting was not up to the standard, it hit the US box office, but it sure isnt worthy to watch as the movie is generally suspense-less.

Next Up: Duplicity.

Rating 4/5

1: Dont bother to watch it.
2: Maybe watch it somewhere else but not the cinema.
3: Worth a visit to the cinema.
4: A second screening would be still exciting.
5: A GOOD movie.

Plot: Julia Roberts working for the CIA and Clive Owen working for MI6 play competing undercover corporate high level top secret business spies who may or may not be conning each other. The movie shows us what lenghts mega corporations will try and go to keep their new product information out of the hands of their competitors. The spys in this case will not even acknowledge their relationship as a sly parallel to regular relationships. The implication here is that most people do not say or trust themselves in relationships, but as spies Julia and Clive have good reason to be wary. Multi continent travels, many plot twists and counter twists follow. The music is light locations are beautiful and evokes the Ocean's movies and fun is had by all even if you can't always follow the plot. ( taken from IMDB)

Trailer:

Comment: The movie is a intellectual movie, the plot might be complex, but that is what ocean 12 and 13 is trying to be(:

2009-07-07T21:45:00.003+08:00

okay back for some more music and movies guys?
hahas, alrights man.
First up, some indie music to chill through the night while many of us are busy studying for our last paper?
(:

THEY ARE THE BIRD AND THE BEE!!!!

They can be considered one the coolest duo's i heard around, including the tings tings(:

Genre: Jazz/Indie Pop.

Rating 5/5

1: Dont bother hearing it.
2: Just once would set you not to touch it again
3. Check it out on youtube.
4. Buy the album.
5. A classic in the Making!

A reason why im so in love with their songs is their magical electro melodies, they are so catchy.
And Inara Voice is HOOO!!!
U Dont trust me, check out Love Letters To Japan and their cover of " How Deep Is Your Love"

A Little Intro From Wiki.

The Bird and the Bee is an indie/pop/alternative musical duo from Los Angeles, consisting of musicians Greg Kurstin ("bee") and Inara George ("bird"). Kurstin, a producer and keyboardist who has worked with Lily Allen, Sophie Ellis-Bextor, Beck, The Flaming Lips, Kylie Minogue and Red Hot Chili Peppers, is also a member of the band Geggy Tah. Inara George and Kurstin met while the two were working on her debut album and they decided to collaborate on a jazz-influenced electro pop project. Their debut EP, Again and Again and Again and Again, was released on October 2006 and their debut album was released on January 23, 2007 on Blue Note Records.

Their First Studio Album

The Bird And The Bee.

Songs For Intro

"Again & Again" – 2:47
"Birds and the Bees" – 3:53
"Fucking Boyfriend" – 3:17
"I'm a Broken Heart" – 4:34
"La La La" – 3:21
"My Fair Lady" – 3:39
"I Hate Camera" – 3:06
"Because" – 3:40
"Preparedness" – 3:38
"Spark" – 4:08

Amazingly, its all their songs!!!

2nd Album: Ray Guns are not just the future(:

Songs For Intro:

Fanfare" – 0:29
"My Love" – 3:46
"Diamond Dave" – 3:14
"What's in the Middle" – 3:21
"Ray Gun" – 4:42
"Love Letter to Japan" – 4:07
"Baby" – 3:50
"Polite Dance Song" – 3:47

Here are some of the music videos(:

Love Letters to Japan.

HOW DEEP IS YOUR LOVE cover.(:

This is a must must must hear(:

I guess movie shall come later after my paper tml then.
would be reviewing on the upcoming movie: I Love You Beth Cooper(:

Attention: tonight at 1.30am at channel 5, they are broadcasting michael jackson's memorial service, maybe those who are still burning oil can catch it. May michael rest in peace.

The white shiny gloves and the magical hat(:

Signing Off
Depressionist Jay

Thanks wikipedia and websites who has provided me with info to update u guys(:

Good music deserves to be shared(:

2009-07-06T11:22:00.005+08:00

A little intro of music before i head back into my studies.
Here is another artist of chill out music i like.
This album gives her a kinda children music to you maybe?
Shes a new artist.
Lenka.

A Little Background From Wiki.

Lenka (born Lenka Kripac in 1978)^[1] is an Australian television actress turned ensemble musician with Decoder Ring, turned solo singer-songwriter, most famous worldwide for her song "The Show", which has been used in numerous advertisements, most notably for Old Navy.

Previously best known as an actress in Australia and as a host of a long-running children's breakfast cartoon program Cheez TV in Australia, she has appeared in numerous Australian television serials and feature films.^[2]

Rating 4/5

1: Dont bother hearing it.
2: Just once would set you not to touch it again
3. Check it out on youtube.
4. Buy the album.
5. A classic in the Making!

Here's the music video of the first album Lenka, of the song 'The Show'

Songs recommended.
1. The Show
2. Like a Song
3. We Will Not Grow Old
4. Dangerous And Sweet
5. Bring Me Down
6. Skipalong
7. Don't Let Me Fall
8. Anything I'm Not
9. Knock Knock
10. Trouble Is A Friend
11. Live Like You're Dying

Special must hear.
Like a Song & The Show.

I can't forget you when you're gone.
You're like a song
That goes around in my head.

Signing Off.
Depressionist_Jay

2009-07-04T14:08:00.002+08:00

Some chill music to go along for this weekend.
Pick up this band in the indie/rock playlist.
They are the Camera Obscura.

Genre: Indie/Chill

Rating 5/5

1: Dont bother hearing it.
2: Just once would set you not to touch it again
3. Check it out on youtube.
4. Buy the album.
5. A classic in the Making!

Just when you think indie music are non-mainstream and not worth to listen.
Your quite wrong actually, these non-mainstream music in singapore are mainly the popular ones in europe, so do give them a try.

Here are their discography.

My Maudlin Career (Latest Album)

Song for Intro:

Careless Love
French Navy
The Sweetest Thing
Swans
Forest And Sands

Music Video For French Navy

Lets Get Out Of This Country.

Songs For Intro:

Lloyd I'm Ready To Be Heartbroken
Tears For Affairs
Come Back Margaret
Dory Previn
The False Contender
Let's Get Out Of This Country
Country Mile
If Looks Could Kill
I Need All The Friends I Can Get
Razzle Dazzle Rose

Music Video For Let's Get Out Of This Country

Music Video For Tears For Affair

2009-07-04T13:31:00.007+08:00

one more week.
2 more papers to go.(:
and its movie time!

Alright, shall u you guys some review on movies(:

First up.
Showing in cinemas.
Ice age 3 - Dawn Of the Dinosaurs (3D for selected cinemas)

Trailer

Plot: After the events of "Ice Age: The Meltdown", life begins to change for Manny and his friends: Scrat is still on the hunt to hold onto his beloved acorn, while finding a possible romance in a female sabre-toothed squirrel named Scratte. Manny and Ellie, having since become an item, are expecting a baby, which leaves Manny anxious to ensure that everything is perfect for when his baby arrives. Diego is fed up with being treated like a house-cat and ponders the notion that he is becoming too laid-back. Sid begins to wish for a family of his own, and so steals some dinosaur eggs which leads to Sid ending up in a strange underground world where his herd must rescue him, while dodging dinosaurs and facing danger left and right, and meeting up with a one-eyed weasel known as Buck who hunts dinosaurs intently. (Taken from imdb)

Rating: 4/5

1: Dont bother to watch it.
2: Maybe watch it somwhere else but not the cinema.
3: Worth a visit to the cinema.
4: A second screening would be still exciting.
5: A GOOD movie.

Comment: The third installment of Ice Age 3, full of adventure along with never failed laughter. Good to catch it with 3D(:

Next up: A Perfect Getaway
Coming Soon: 14/08/09

Trailer

Plot: Cliff and Cydney (Steve Zahn and Milla Jovovich) are an adventurous young couple celebrating their honeymoon by backpacking to one of the most beautiful, and remote, beaches in Hawaii. Hiking the wild, secluded trails, they believe theyve found paradise. But when the pair comes across a group of frightened hikers discussing the horrifying murder of another newlywed couple on the islands, they begin to question whether they should turn back.

Unsure whether to stay or flee, Cliff and Cydney join up with two other couples, and things begin to go terrifyingly wrong. Far from civilization or rescue, everyone begins to look like a threat and nobody knows whom to trust. Paradise becomes hell on earth as a brutal battle for survival begins (Credit to IMDB)

Rating: 4/5

1: Dont bother to watch it.
2: Maybe watch it somwhere else but not the cinema.
3: Worth a visit to the cinema.
4: A second screening would be still exciting.
5: A GOOD movie.

Comment: A interesting plot to horror films, good to watch.

2009-06-26T21:22:00.000+08:00

This is good man!

6/5 stars(:

2009-06-22T14:03:00.002+08:00

one song.
explains its all.

Shiny toy guns - LE DISKO.

Le Disko - Shiny Toy Guns

go get the single.

we gonna ride the race cars.

2009-06-17T14:58:00.003+08:00

yo guys.
back to blog.
shall bring u guys updates on entertainment, music and stuffs to intro from my personal stash(:

First up.

This album is a MUST MUST BUY.

Utada Hikaru - This is the One

Rating 5/5!!!!

In case any of you guys never heard from her before.
She the one who sang first love(:
This is her new international album.
And its good(:

This Is the One

A Must Listen to all the songs.

Just once and it got me hooked up.

Next up is movies in cinemas.

Taking of Pelham 123

Rating 5/5

Just as u thought it would be a ordinary action film of robbery, your wrong! The movie is full of twist, a very good novel written. The cast is good, especially u get John Travolta to be the villain. I always like him to be the bad-ass guys.

Hope this 2 selections are what satisfy u this week(:

enjoy and will be back for more introductions(:

2009-06-14T15:04:00.005+08:00

finally.
back to this dead dead blog.
million years not a update since my birthday.
and i got my 5800(:
been working on it, doing some changes, quite satisfied with it. i give it a 4/5(:

For my birthday celebration, not much actually. Dont have the time to do do celebration but study for gp BT2. Can say my main celebration is with my OG? Lol. went to timbre to chill, have some beer and yea. Have fun(:

Stayed over at yik ming house to watch UEFA finals too, wasnt expecting barcelona to dominate the first half so badly, its like me playing FIFA online that kinda standard. Well barcelona deserves the cup i feel, they fight hard for the whole season, even though didnt see all their matches, can feel it too.

But Ronaldo is way out of MAN U man, thank goodness he is leaving, he is so arrogant-type, having him in the team its like pulling down the reputation of man u. Look at the match against barca, its obvious he wants to show the world how good his free kicks are, to play solo when counter attack, and he knows man u cant afford to do that. Instead, blame his manager for wrong tactics, Fergie. If he played the wrong tactics, man u would not have defended the BPL alr.

Not much been done this june holiday, except studying studying, going back to school for extra lessons. Adam khoo talk was fun, trainers are good and funny and chio. Hahas, the mastery programme was good la, not really a waste of money, got many useful skills out if it.

The gp workshop was wasting time man. "curtain" went through a lot of grammar stuffs, including primary schools ones. She is a nice teacher la, but dunno why always like to di siao me. LOL. Hmm, her hair is something like....

Courtesy of flickr.com

But manage to get something out of the course at least, if not would have wasted time for the 4 days going to school for nothing(: Actually not nothing, at least i found another eyecandy. LOL.

Been studying these few days, hope can rush in time to revise finish for BT2 (adam khoo trainers ask me to aim for A levels, not BT2) LOL.

Okay, off to study again, many upcoming events. Update u guys soon.

TODAY
yik ming house bbq + stay over

TML
SOUND I

20 JUNE
NCC

21st JUNE
NCC + Coach Wedding.

LAW OF ATTRACTION.

2009-05-11T23:19:00.003+08:00

1 more hour.
towards the end of today.
1 more hour.
to the start of the next day.
1 more hour.
towards the start of a new life 18 years ago.
1 more hour.
to the end of the 17 years i been through.
1 more hour.
towards me turning into bed, hoping for a sweet sweet dream.
1 more hour.
to me looking up upon the stars wondering.
1 more hour.
towards the mark of the legal life
1 more hour.
to the end of NC-16
1 more hour.
towards me switching off the comp.
1 more hour.
for me think about what will happen for the rest of my day tml.
1 more hour.
for me to think whether i will even survive it.

Its coming down.
crashing like a fallen angel,
with a helpless soul falling into earth.
he tried to hold on to something that he trust.
but it seems like it doesnt belong to him at all.

HAPPY 18.

All i ever wanted is to see u smiling.
All i ever wanted is to make u mine.

2009-05-07T20:39:00.002+08:00

nothing much.
just wanna delicate this post to someone.
Dearest there.
Please do not be sad alright,
it hurt me seeing u like that.
Ur meant to shine like a sun(:

一堆绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起斑鹃般的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪摸名地拉扯
我还爱你呢
但你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
你开始的不快乐
你用卡片信写着
有谁爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱断了梦怨了
开始你不该信疑一心述着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆那音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
一堆绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起斑鹃般的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
情绪摸名地拉扯
我还爱你呢
但你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
你开始的不快乐
你用卡片信写着
有谁爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱断了梦怨了
开始你不该信疑一心述着你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆那音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱断了梦怨了画都还记得
你不等了说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了
只是回忆那音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
说好的幸福呢

2009-04-28T22:27:00.001+08:00

U know what.
Life sucks.
Totally not looking forward to anything.
Anything at all.
FUCK LIFE.

2009-04-13T23:54:00.001+08:00

i wonder if i should start a blogshop.
and start selling my massive closet away(:

2009-03-24T22:50:00.002+08:00

Memories and Tales of a broken family.
things are getting out of control.
im breaking down.

BTs are finally over.
Something to relax its good.
But mentioning of Maths getting U again is sian.
i guess i spent too much time studying for Chem.
Hope i can do well for chem bah.

Resulting that im aiming for.

Maths - E (U)
Chem - C (?)
Phy - C (?)
GSC - C (?)
GP - E (?)

Hope they are coming true.

Talking about which.
BTs ended ytd.
So i stayed over at kekang house, watched a few movies and helped to bake sampler cookies for learning festival.
Coming home, taking a nap, dinner and was aiming for a dota match before i turn in for school tml.
Guess wad.

Mommy: eh, exam over alr izzit, why are u playing all day long?

Me: *silences* -> trying my best here miss ong if your reading this.

Mommy: taking a day off at your friend house not enough izzit. You think that BT is a big exam? You think your big exam finish alr izzit. Can start playing alr izzit.

Me:*still silences* Usually i would have fight back by the first sentence.

Mommy: Shut down your computer and go and study now! *time check: 10.00pm* I usually aleep around 11.00pm.

Me: *In the middle of a dota match, u expect me to stop?* Okay soon im sleeping okay.

Mommy: This is what u only know how to do. Play Play Play Play. Results alr so lousy, teacher stopping you from CCA, hoping that your able to spend more time on studies and your there playing.

Me:*silence* *always got full of things to rebutt against her, im trying my best to keep it down, i dont wish to argue again*

Mommy:Look at how u study and your sisters study, still dont want close your laptop izzit. Fine, when u get back your results, if u did badly, im going to meet your teacher. If u didnt do well for As, im going to stop u from schooling.

Me:For a moment i think i went blackout. Too much holding back.

Chinese saying goes.
REN BI REN, QI SI REN.

I really dont understand my mum.
Its not like as if im not studying at all,

Im just taking a break off my studies since its after my BT.
And she keep screaming and screaming about me playing,
Those who are reading this, do u guys think that i should be deserve for a break?

Im really breaking down soon.
Communication is really bad with her.
Everytime we always end of arguing,
with me and her crying.

Mommy:*My son is not even studying hard even when he is doing badly*

Son:*Cant i take just a small break of dota match as a breather from BTs?*

Ma, you dont even see me studying at all.
My laptop is at home, and i try my best to study outside.
I am working my ass off trying to improve.
And all u see is me on the comp, checking tutorials answers,
THINKING IM PLAYING.

And everytime i tried to explain,
she thinks im just trying to fight back, talk back to her.
I really do not know how to communicate with her anymore. Seriously.

Another worrying thing is.
She keep complaining of frequent blackout.
Check it on google, its a main symptom of STROKE.
S.T.R.O.K.E.
told her about it,
guess whats her reply.

Mommy: I suffer from strokes nevermind, i got buy insurance, at most hire nurse only ma.

Whats shes really afraid is needles and taking blood test,
thats why she refuses to go to the doctor.
She is afraid that when she goes for consultation, the doctor would diagnose that she has diabetes(which she alr know) and get tied down to regular consultation, regular needles and blood test.

For goodness sake, going for treatment for stroke is even worse,
she might not even talk, or walk.
Just spending the rest of her like paralyse in worst case scenario.
And she doesnt mind.

Worse of all, she end it off with a
I WOULDNT SUFFER FROM THIS DIEASES AT ALL IF U DONT MAKE ME ANGRY.

MAKE ME ANGRY = ME USING THE COMP.

ME USING THE COMP = PLAYING DOTA AFTER BTs.
= CHECKING TUTORIAL ANSWERS.

Thinking about it myself.
I think i would die first.
rather than her.
She totally dont understand the life that im in.
BERSERK.
REALLY BERSERK NOW.

I dunno what must i do.
then she is happy.

LEAVE THE HOUSE.
GO COMMIT SUICIDE.

my dad die because of late discovery.
and she wants the same thing?
should i be mentally prepared,
thats she might pass away?

GOD.
GOD.
GOD!!!!

2009-03-21T01:10:00.001+08:00

PHYSICS.

2009-02-14T22:30:00.006+08:00

Maybe this is what im truly am.

a clown, sad on the inside.

thanks http://www.photographyblog.com/forums/index.php?act=Print&client=printer&f=17&t=3579 for the image provided.
dont wanna get into any trouble for that.
lol.

People who looks forward towards my perth post. Sorry to disappoint u all again): Coming to think of it, V day is a good way to rewinding back into the past, back to my 18 years on life on earth.

Honestly speaking, life wasnt been good, i wasnt born in a well off family, and i wasnt sad about it, im a easily contented, but my family relationship wasnt well off, i have 2 sisters, in which one doesnt really gives much a damn about this family i have to say, i doesnt really have much idea why she treats us this way. Maybe its just plain different, not just the normal so so ideal family relationships u seen in the dramas. My dad i gonna say i lived with fear around him, there seems to be very little fun with him, maybe just during family outings i guess. Other than that, its just plain scolding and cries of me.

Lets take a look at my mischief records

I was caught playing with fire for 3 times, chased out of house because of it. Mind you, im only 6.

It ended all crying when reports cards came back home, leaving me either to kneel without meals or overnight, the only time in which that didnt happen was when im primary 2, with me scoring 3rd in class in the last class, earning me a trip to LA. This is maybe due to the high standards my sisters set for me. His always on a constant threatening of ending my studies from p5 onwards, leading me to the tot of suicide for the good of this family when i was 11.

Eldest sister: damai pri (PSLE 240)
2nd sister: damai pri (PSLE 262)
Me: damai pri (PSLE 226)

Eldest sister: chung cheung high main (O levels ???)
2nd sister: duman high ( L1r5 11)
Me: Damai secondary (L1r5 18)

Eldest sister: (SP)
2nd sister: (TJC)
ME: (SAJC all thanks to canoeing)

My dad rush home without finishing his work, when i was p5 to throw my bag into the rubbish chute, because i wasnt studying for my major exams in june and happily watching tv. And i wasnt allowed in the house when i brought my bag back.

The lies in which i told my dad resulted in crazy returns, bringing me thousands of lines of writing. i remembered once when during p5, after exams i was supposed to go out to celebrate yinah bday, but it was the first time i was going out, so i didnt dare say, but lied to do project. How stupid i am, leading to me being exposed for giving a house number of my friend.

The most significant thing about my dad was about how strict he was and easily angered. i rmb that was once he lock my sis out of the house when she was just late for 1 min. Which resulted my mom quarreling with him, of cold wars of almost 1 month. And he was best in sarcasm, when u do something wrong, he can just shoot you till the edge, e.g u hang out till late, he'll call u as a ah beng that would be jail for something when u grow out, a good for nothing on the phone when he calls back home look for mummy to ask about stocks. When his ur daddy. UR daddy.

Although he passed away when i was sec 3, im still very grateful for how strict he is, to brought me up as a guy with manners and maturity, i would never imagine what i would become in damai if he was not there.

What hurts the most is that, when he was in his last few weeks of living, there was still constant anger which started of with me and my sisters, so for that 2 weeks his been leading his conclusion that 3 of us are out to anger him to death. Thats what hurts the most, when it really came true.

When lifes isnt as good as it is in ur family, people do turn towards their friends, making them no. 1.

Life in primary school should be the best, it was just plain playing playing and playing. i still remember i was playing basketball or soccer everyday after school when i was p3. Only to return home when the danger was near. I have to admit, im sometimes a bully in school to those small kids.

I remember once when there was a kid who said he doesnt like damai pri, i was p5 then, i scolded him and pushed him to the next school beside us, bedok west, and ask him to enroll there, he must have been frightened, i think he was only p2 then. i stopped till a old man saw what i was doing. Hahas.

My first fight was in p1, during children's day. U know the days when teachers gives kids sweets and chocolate. It was afetr school, while walking home, i remembered i snatch his sweet for fun, playing hard to get, he got so fed up that he punch me in the stomach, returning back, i gave him a strike on the back. Leading me to the P office the next day with his parents coming to school. Come to think of it, it was quite funny.

And im grateful to see my first clique formed, of me eunice, yinah, weili, delin, kenneth and sanche. THE SEVENTH. 11 years of friendship, and its still going

SEVENTH.

Pri school days(:

ili and me. HOT HOT HOT GIRL(:

And there are many more, like ili, caline, addie, fir, ashraf, daniel, simon, hwee juan, pehchen, quan liang, hong yun and many more, hard to name it all.

Moving on the secondary school life, life during sec 1 and 2 was like just leadin on with my primary school mindset. With more friends known, and the start of my canoeing life, along with work, and the start of my BGR.

Life wasnt bad in secondary school, as i can say in heaviily in the influence of all devils tot, all u can think of. Smoking, gambling, gangs. Things like that, and im glad i held strong, becoming who i am.

Many cliques was form, but it seems that all these turn down to waste, when all cliques combine and i became rejected to some issues, which i dont wish to talk about it again. approach me if you really wanna know. im a social person, friends are my number 1. its just hurts when they do not call u out for outing when theres one. IT HURTS.

JOHN LITTLE Cliques, Breekz cliques, Damai sec 1 to 2 cliques, sec 3 to 4 cliques, Damai canoeing cliques. Thanks for the memories, even though some of them are real painful.

BGR in secondary wasnt really successful, and i guess maybe its time to give some apologies and thanks.

To fiona leong: i think its kinda weird to be talking about you since friendship is kinda gone, but i still gonna say sorry. for things that i shouldnt have done. hope ur leading a good life now.

To dorothy, thanks for that happy 48 days u gave me, even though it was short. it was meaning and important to me.

To joyce: thanks for the memories u gave me.

i gonna admit, i like people easily, so, dont be too nice to me, u might be next(:

Me and doro(:

Life at the end of secondary 4 was quite desperate enough to leave damai, friends are left to move on, and maybe its time i do, and im greatful that i make friends who are much better to me, along with my dearest SA canoeing team, and my coach(:

hmm, things are some how coming to an end now, its late and maybe i should catch some sleep.
(:

A SAD CLOWN.
Always there to cheer people on,
looking bright and always happy.
but whats inside,
doesnt seems the way its suppose to be.

Depressionist_Jay
once again. tonight.

2009-01-04T16:17:00.027+08:00

Hi guys, after 3 long months of break on blogging this is the first time back with the post of my china pictures, pictures are not in order as there are thousands over(:
forgive and forget, next up would be perth photos(:

Home sweet home(:

Huang wen yong!!! he sae im handsome (:

subway in china(:

our group(:

imba english(;

food at china school(:

do i really look like lin dan???

our tour guide in suzhou, freaking nice and funny guy, keep complaing he marry the wrong wife(:

the day the flying stood still, in suzhou(:

mings future wife(: so chio and compatible, hahas(:

RIDING THE BOAT(:

My first horse ride went to san guo cheng, much better than igallop. hahas

West lake(:

read this(:

san guo cheng again(:

founder of tea(:

SOME science centre stuff(:

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me(:

ming ming and beautiful flowers(:

r
why is her photo doing here.
lol

A gay smile upon reaching(:

view of shanghai skyscraper after museum visit

tunnels of shanghai venice(:

fighting ground of san guo cheng???

Emperor and nu cai at work.(:
taken at san guo cheng, a place where they build for shooting of ancient shows.

Night view of shanghai on a boat trip(:

Me and san guo cheng

Emo ming at boat trip, thinking of who arh(:

The emperor strikes again(:

Pics of some random place.

View out of plane. freaking imba nice(:

Leaving shanghai, home sweet home(:

Another imba pic of the outside view(:

Imba mitsubitshi car(:

before landing(:

the plane we took(:

night view of shanghai shopping street(:

Shanghai

shanghai again(:

some imba exhibits i saw at shanghai museum.

look at the engravements(:

very very good(:

Flowers(:

Our tour guide, this is just a pure block of marble, which they use as a painting, and for weather use, eg. if the block is wet, means its going to rain soon(:

Shanghai venice(:

San guo cheng(:

just landed(:

jay face is everywhere in the supermart(:

before flying(:

on the boat trip, with the j2s(:

very nice view of shang hai tan(:

More photos, looks like i got sandwich among the girls.
lol

Pics taken from the pearl tower(:

a performance we watched at san guo cheng, about cao cao, liu bei, guan yu against lu bu fight,
its in dynasty warrior battle of the hu lao gate.
lol

San guo cheng(:

Emperor again, freaking loaded to rent the suits(:

a show we watched at su zhou, freaking imba effects(:

tea tasting(:
green tea cost 75 bucks sing. PAIN

School we visited.(:

Dao-ers.(:

ming, me jorji and tim(:

our own mini concerts on the bus(:

brother forevers(:

place of yue fei(:

teacher got ambused. lol(:

people who sabo yue fei to die(:

YUE FEI!!!(:

2008-11-20T21:37:00.010+08:00

Aim High, and SOAR.

After like 3 weeks of no posts, im finally able to come back on my computer to blog. have been really busy with stuffs la, i guess i shall keep readers straight to the main events bah, and able to see what i have achieve for my 3 fruitful weeks.

Firstly, Class chalet. Wah, it was fun la, but it was damn tired man. After swim went down to check in for chalet, and someone was late for like 1 hr plus lor, eh bit pissed of la. But things got better la, cause i've learn to forgive(:

Then came the games, everyone had fun, including the teachers!!! Hahas, cool right, the have games during chalet, not like those normal chalet, boring sian, and just gambling. Then comes bbq, i was like having the plain rice mainly, couldnt find any healthy-for-training food i can eat.

After that was movie session, QOS, a bit complicating, but u have to follow through la, yik ming waste money, lol, slept through the 1st hr of the movie, hahas, den headed back for slept, while others gambled or watched dvds they brought.

After water training, went back home to rest and went down to chalet, the 2nd night was nothing much, most of them left after the 1st night, only a few of us left, went for dinner and overnight mahjong, and the next day, wah, full fever mode. It was damn sian lor, to have fever straight after chalet, didnt even bother to join them for breakfast. Went home to nua alr, and that is lor. End of my class chalet.

Next is kushinbo session with class, some of them won the kushinbo vouchers, so went to kushinbo tgt with them la. It was fun, well, first time see lim zhen eat until so much, you wouldnt wanna imagine how much snow crab she had in her plate, well, the crab was fresh, but i somehow didnt really like the "xin wei." Ate some, yah, so well. Then was photo session after that lor.

So, i shall let the pictures do the talking.

The Contrast is so big(:

Nothing much to comment here(:

Shes so heavy, i push so hard, it wouldnt move.

First ever close photo i take with Gab?

My training paid off!(:

Alright, next come sentosa trip with my dear canoeing mates. It was damn fun la, come only tio buried, hahas, but i heard leon was worst, cause while digging for hole for me, he got buried as well, thats the fate leon!

Had lunch, delicious cooking from the team, seems like the guys in the team can cook better(:
Ate and swam, over to a small island opposite, and wrote sajc canoe, leon tried to come along with the rugby ball as a floatation device, but was greeted by the life guard. hahas. still can remember. "Boy, if u cant swim well, please do not use a floatation device to swim, come back immmediately to shore". Hahas.

Other than that, took jump shots in the water, played volleyball, captains ball, a lot of balls la. But louis was sad, his kite was stuck on a tree):

Again, picture shall do the talking(:

Training Camp
Okay, after fun was camp. It was hard, but it made us stronger, more bonder as a team, training was defintely tough for that week, for a high intensity week, u could imagine how tough it could be(: But i really have to thank eugene here. Without his talk to me on msn before camp, i think i have alr give up on myself. Thanks eugene, you allow me to find myself back into the game, as a better player right now(:

Well recently been training and working and studying hard, and soon i'll be flying off for China.

Finish team talk today, and i guess we have clarify doubts we have among one another, hope this is able to help us break the barrier, that is stoppping us to achieve more, towards the COMMON goal. I feel that i still have to stress this la, what have been mention has already mention and said, but i still believe its still up to oneself whether he or she is working towards a change. Teamwork, u how much u can contribute to the team, not how much the team is able to give to you.(:

A short little message for my dear canoeing team here. Work hard, and fight hard, for the week approach is a gauge of wad u plough during these 3 hard weeks. Although im not around with you guys, my metal and spirit is always on ur side, praying hard that u guys would be able to achieve more.(:

Some random picture during these weeks(:

PAIN is TEMPORARY, GLORY is FOREVER

2008-10-25T12:44:00.003+08:00

SEVENFOLD!!
SEVENFOLD!!
SEVENFOLD!!

Fu yoo. AVENGED SEVENFOLD MADNESS. Yesterday totally rocked my day! It was freaking good good GOOD. No words to go to describe the concert yesterday man! i came into so close contact with M. shadows, Syn gates, Zacky, Rev, And JOHNNY CHRIST!!! Although it just an hour long, it was GOOD!

Came back home ard 4, brought my mum to see doc, but it wasnt open, so went down to expo straight alr, eddie bluff me, say there was some press conference allow them to see a7x. lol. reach tanah merah mrt station alr start the craze liao. Saw so many people with a7x shirts!!!!

Went i reach expo, the queue was long!!!! From hall 10 queue all the way to hall 9. Thats a lot of ppl at 5.30 alr. im so grateful im there earlier, so i can cut my friend queue, thanks eddie and company, damaians(:

5.45 there was some fight outside the queue, but it was for just a while, at 6, when someone open the door, everyone kan chiong, stand up and push like hell, wa liao, kena tau pok like.... den everyone kan chiong, remain standing, don wan move back, we all sweating like hell. lol den you can hear people start singing nationl anthem, saying pledge, first time see people so pariotic to singapore eh. lol. Den continue to sing, a7x songs, till ard 7, door opens, kena squeeze again, push here and there, try to resist, no choice, need to protect the girls. Finally went in, but separated, cause herng all they got push behind or something.

Kan Chiong ppl standing up at 6

More of them(:

All hype up for concert!!!

Kena squeeze.

This is the main stage.

During the squeezy guest band interval

Yan and rachel, if you can see them properly(:

Pity the guest band, they kena boo like wad. Cause it was too long a delay, 8.30 and the concert is still not starting, they were doing sound check, preparing alcohol for a7x. U can see a small mini bar of vodka, barcadi, and lots of drinks on the left side of the stage, which i was standing. Im so grateful i stood there, cause main stage there was mosh, right side mass smoking.

And the concert starts, with a lot of mosh again, lights out and syn gates starts off with critical acclaim tune, everbody screams, i got this crazy guy, like spasm, kena scolded by the ah lians, damn funny, got another girl also, keep shaking, like on cloud 9 like that. M. shadows was so good at hyping up the crowd!!! especially on the part of almost easy, hey, oh, hey oh, hey oh, im not insane, and M. Shadows laugh was damn imba!!!!
The songs they sang was
Critical acclaim
Afterlife
Beast and the Harlot
Scream
Seize the day
Unholy Confessions
(Part of) Syn's Solo
Gunslinger
Almost Easy
Little Piece of Heaven

FYI. i died out on the 5th songs, lost voice alr. lol
And there was a lot of people being thrown around, i pity this girl who was thrown, i think she got molest like hell.

Let the video do the talking, taken from youtube, i had mine, but it wasnt clear.

This video is for you to see how close i am, im just right behind this guy.

Thats all folks(:
SEVENFOLD.
SEVENFOLD.
SEVENFOLD!!!!

2008-10-14T21:02:00.007+08:00

Sometimes, i just need a break.

Its been a long time since i blog(: and i have to sae sorry for those to came over to look for a new post, but up to their dissapointment its not there yet. Well, got up my lazy bum and start to blog. lets see what i can cover today, try to update u guys with as much stuff as possible.

Work
Alright, started work already. Well, it was alright, just a few changes, better welfare, new colleagues, new manager, and new EYECANDY. Hahas, sad enough, shes 21, but age doesnt matter. Hahas, got given big plane last sunday, manager said got orientation but got cancelled in the end. Sad then, but looking got the bright side, i got new shoes and socks(: for china trip(:

Studies
Alrights, not much here, except that its been a week after that stupid PW intensive week, i wonder why it wad there anyway, everyone is like playing and playing, and ponning, lol, but our group managed to do up some work, progressing well la, but WR submission is due this week, so its a bit rush then(:
Another thing to worry about, me being promoted, i really hope this thurday would never come, as in, i dont really wish to see myself being retain, cause i dont even know i can even retain, whether my mum would let me continue to study not. Im really scared now, but theres nothing to worry now actually, everything has been SETTLED.
Current expectation of score.
Chinese A
Physics D
Maths E
Chem E
GSC D
GP E
then i would promote(:

Another thing is, i believe most of my holidays would be eaten up by training, work, overseas and studies. But its all for the good cause, a good harvest next year(:

Training.
alright, training started, and its getting better than ever. Although pain sucks, but this would be just temporary, while the glory we're fighting for would be forever. EVER Must thank hilary for pushing me on for more sit ups during gym(: hahas. got a skeleton of 6 packs alr(:

School
Blink of eye, an a year is gone, much has change and now its time for us to move on. Teachers has gave us what they could and some of them are leaving us. In fact, some of them alr did, i dont know why, but it seems that this politcs has gone way to far, that they cannot take it anymore. I only can wish the best of them in their future, while the evil continue to reign. UMBRIDGE(:

RELAX.
Alright, there is actually quite a lot to relax during the holidays. I planning for chalet for class and canoeing, and i believe there would be lots of get togethers in this holidays, just meet up with the FIFTHS, looking forward for SEVENTH reunion, 4e2, Damai, and many more(:

Well, some picture to entertain u
Taken on Friday at Breeks marina square.

Me and Clone(: YKL are u seeing this? hahas

A good pic with skeleton(:

Formal one.

Super uber pose peirong requested for.

Another one.

The beauties(:

Cloning jiao faces.

The FIFTHS

A very good shot hoh

Taken without consideration.

Random pictures.

Original version of pictue on top.
First attempt, and its a classic.

Creator of that uber face.

Creator looking for more imba shots.

This is true classsic.

i think can win award lo. This is a candid shot. and its so nice. lol

ishwar, who are u thinking of?

Song of the day
Mad
Ne-Yo

Song of the day 2
Best of Me
Daniel Powter

PS: Jay albums out tml(:

Depressionist_Jay
2008

BACK.

2008-09-27T20:27:00.004+08:00

Mo Jie Zuo!!!
Plz pre-order and buy it! Support Jay

IM BACK.
wee... finally after so so many months of mugging. PROMOS is finally over, after this tuesday. Hahas, being longing this day for quite long alr, ever since july i think, after my a divs. Hmm, now after promos is over, there are quite a lot of things i wanna get over and done with.

1.Training.
Hmm, seriously after the a divs this year and all the video i've seen, it reallies motivate me to train harder to take back what has been lost. I dun understand why, everytime i see the video of eugene k4 crossing the line, it just touches me, deep in the heart, over time leading me to push on more and more, i guess i shall start off with basic running for stamina first before i can achieve any other things(:

2. Mo Jie Zuo
Cant wait for Jays album to be out in the stores man, hahas, been anticipating this album for quite long alr, hope it can come out earlier, den i can listen and train with it, along with my a7x and dragonforce song on to motivate me(:

Try this, Dao Xiang, very country flavour(:

3. A7x concert. Oct 24
HOOOOO!! My first concert experience is going to be for A7x coming to singapore for the first concert in singapore on oct 24. After so long of anticipation for singaporeans its time for them to rock our little Island alive with their inspirational songs. Their lyrics are really motivating and meaningful If you guys really hear it well(:

M.I.A
fight for ur honour fight for ur life,
pray to god that our side is right
though we won but still we lose,
until we make it home to you.

Lady Gaga - The Fame
Another album i've been looking forward to buy is LADY Gaga, her voice is super sexy and music are so catchy and seductive, make u wanna dance eh(:

Just Dance.
whats go-ing on the floor?
I love this record but i cant see straight anymore(:

Work.
And guess what, im back to work under zingrill, this time not in seoul garden but marina, dunno why mam may made the switch, maybe im good at interacting with customers eh. But i scare i would take wron order eh, and the new mam chris makes it look more even scarer, hahas, but the good thing is pay is now 50 cents more per hr and i might even get more, after 1 week of working. Lol. And if i get catering job is more money(:

Overseas trip.
Cool man, looks like this is the first time im leaving out of singapore twice in a year during Dec holidays(: First towards china for the immersion trip and to malaysia to have a friendly race with jiao lan friends international team(: Actually im looking forward more for the malaysia trip, cos it be the first time to race with team from other country, rather than Singapore(:

Round Ubin Race
Hehe, my first time ever racing on the external part of Singapore, actually looking forward to this event very long alr. Got to race under high waves(: Friendly hoh hilary, thats why wave to you. lol(:

Ok, thats roughly where im heading on this 2 months of holidays. Wish me Luck Den(:

MFL Mugger For Life

2008-09-03T22:59:00.002+08:00

Failure is not about how deep your fall.
But how fast you.
GET UP.

Ok. back to blog at a late timing.
Woke up late again, basket, i must stop procrastinating!!! Rush off to buy cake for yik ming, and in school i rush for. Heng i saw bus 8 coming, if not would den waste money on cab again. Nowadays cab is not very cheap hoh, $3.10 you u just board. It used to be $2.40, but meter jumping 10 cents per 100m or minute. Heng i wasnt late, but almost got caught by yik ming with cake when i cross the bridge over the SAJS. Walk the usual route, act like see nothing when lim zhen and her bf was having a good time talking together. Don really wanna disturb, as i keep thinking whether that was her bf. Hahas, 2nd time see him, cnt blame me.

Physics
Celebrated yik ming birthday first, den left cake aside, eat later. back to lesson, after eugene speech, i manage to stay awake first time for Mr lim lesson for 1.5hrs, and i understand the things he say(:

After that went off for lunch with the usuals, (sorry zimu for ps-ing u at the library) subway again, money burn, but it was good. Teriyaki chicken footlong double meat, u all should try. Tried the subway wrap also, not bad la. Worth to eat for once only. hahas. cos not a lot. And those who nvr eat be4, dont be like me, gong gong go order subway wrap footlong, they only serve it in one side, lol. so paiseh.

Ate, talk crap and laughed. Gabriel he really sky not scared ground not scare ( tian bu pa di bu pa) i wonder what would really happen to him when he tio threaten by people he have let to experience with, we shall see what would happen to him. Dont be so ego la gabriel, its good to be humble.

Den went back home to study while the rest when to AMK lib to study. Studied all the way from 2 to 7, doing maths, den the delivery for protein came, MY SHAKER!!!! basket. sian. nvms, till now.

I guess i wont be blogging much tml, as i would be mugging the whole day. Cyaa on fri with pics of poon hse gathering bah(:

Some random pics(:

taken with poon on 31/8/08.

This picture is long overdue. Hahas. Enjoying eh ivan and billy. LOL.

The inspirational pic that leave me breathless.

Canoeing Team SAJC 07/08

#Jay
2046.

2008-08-30T21:37:00.004+08:00

I can feel your heart.

Friday

TEACHERS DAY!!! lol. it was a not bad celebration, with aces day to kick start, and the sabo-ing of hilary to lead the aces day workout, hahas. Den it was peformance by students, singing, dancing, and award prize ceremony, the singing of the first band was totally. er. unforgettable, didnt know that acdc- back in black could be sang like that. lol. dancing from the mechanism was ok. But the AV screw it up with a lousy track. And the bass of the 2 band sucks, so over enpowering, killing all the rhythmn.

After that left with yikming to change and get back to our secondary schools. Back to damai around 11.30pm, peformance alr ended, but manage to meet up with teachers. Mr poon, mr gabriel, mrs ling, ms yap, a lot more la. Had a good chat with them. 4E2, friday night bbq at mr poon house.(:

After that headed down the cine to meet oliver, christine, nai ying and nikki for movie. So sorry for sneezing non-stop in the movie, was feeling was damn cold la. But the movie is very nice, before watching i rate it as 2/5, but it turned out to be a astonishing 5/5. Plot is good, full of twist, and ROMANCE!(: Directed by director of my sassy-girl.

She was the dream girl i ever dreamt of, send from the future by me.

Den had dinner with nikki, back to home to sleep.

Saturday.

Cannot really imagine, im studying the whole day. hahas. Ok la. back to EPL. see you guys tml with more pictures of gabriel's birthday party. yik ming dont jealous. lol

#Jay
2046.

Time Trail

2008-08-28T20:45:00.003+08:00

Theres always a child in everyone(:

Wednesday
Lessons, don wanna talk much about them, they around the same now, trying to finish the syllabus(:

Time trial
Hmm, i feel like... didnt really hit my best. I felt that i had more coming, although i beat my last 500m timing by 10 seconds, i feel like there is more to be given on. However, on a positive note, the rest of the guys were like quite close to me, im very grateful that they took my word and put in effort to change on their mistakes i told them about. Great Job Team!

Thursday
Lessons as usual, nothing much, its was a long day. till 5pm(:
Subwayyed after that.(:

Next thing to look forward to:
1. teachers day celebration tml
2. Gabriel sunday party.

Wo xiang wo shi tai guo yi lai,
i think that im relying too much,

zai gua dian hua de gang cai,
when i was just about to hang up,

jian jian xue dan chun de xiao hai,
slowly learning to be a kid,

wo she bu de li kai
i cant bear to leave.

#Jay
2046.
till den

Service learning :D

2008-08-26T21:09:00.003+08:00

Days are the primary school days are always so fun. Arent they?

Back to blog for a short while before heading back towards study. Hmm, todays theres no lesson for us today, it service learning!!! but its kinds of weird for them to plan it like 4 weeks before promos, but its good though, i get to escape from the dead tue schedule i have. Kinda irony.

To school, had a period of maths, and a lot of crap. Hahas, as always, miss faizah is always smiling even though we are kinda rowdy, hahas, shes been really kind(:

And off to the chesire home right after lessons done. Went over in groups ( i dunno why), not private transport, so we have to sibeisian there (SBS). Chit-chatting last a while, before a walking journey that led us to the home.

When we reach we're like kinda shy shy for everyone, its my first visit to old folks home. But there is always a first one for everyone right(:

Got over to their canteen, and everyone is like shy shy, all gather together. Started the singing session, led those songs i can sing. hahas. i tried my best. But also a bit shy shy. Den walk around, accompany joshua to talk to a SJI old boy, got si song along so at least he can talk to some people over there. His quite cute la, talk to us about SA and Sji being enemies, he being naughty when he was young, getting detention and all those stuff. Hahas. But hard to communicate, cos couldnt hear him well(:

After that we somehow started to gather over to the piano to hear yun hong our zhou jie lun to play her tunes, imba la. Den talents started to showcase with lim zhen and christine piano recitals? hahas. Jiahao tried, but CMI. hahas. (: On and on, and to my crap session, confusing them with coffee or tea, liew lian or rambutan game. hahas. Went up to another level, now got like 6 levels, hahas, thanks to the craziness of jiahao and kekang we had on the bus home day before Service learning. Lol.

Time to leave, and it seems like everyone cant bear to leave, oliver and billy was busy with his cards tricks, zi mu and kai qin was busy attending to the folks there, while the girls cant bear to leave that piano! Hahas.

Took photos, carried stuff and left. Went to AMK for movie, Money not enough 2, hahas. but it was still nice though. I really pity the grandma, kinda sad when ur kids u toil for doesnt want u anymore. Find u a nuisance, i hope that would not happen to me(:

Peppered lunched with zimu, 2nd trip there, and its still very nice, lol. Had a great talk with zimu on the way home. Hmm, and i found out there are quite a lot of people who are thinking critically, as in, mature thinking in the class. Good to realise that, as we are growing up faster than expected. (: Thanks for the talk zimu.

A new of blogging, u guys like it, i guess its more neat this way.

Upcoming next, time trial tml(:

i guess for now,
i will just stick to her,
as im really worried this cruel world will bring her down.
Shes just like,
little red ridinghood.
So vunerable.

Wo hai pa ni xin sui mei ren bang ni ca yan lei.
Im afraid that there is no there to wear ur tears away.

#Jay
2046.

2008-08-25T23:55:00.001+08:00

A random post. its been long since i put photos(:

Enjoy(:

#Jay
2046.

2008-08-24T14:11:00.002+08:00

alrightss.
back to blog a while to update people here about things going on before i set off to study.
hmm.
This week has been a busy while.
study study study. it just 1 more month to promos,
i really hope i can do well(:
rest of the days are random.
Coming on to weekends.
saturday morning was training.
caoch surprised us with a 3 hrs theory talk.
which i find it was very very meaningful,
fresh up my freaky and dying mind,
with a everlasting burst of energy for exams.
Gonna change my look(:
thanks jiao lian!
hahas.
den went for subway for lunch alone.
had a filling meal of double meat of oven toasted chicken breast,
cost me freaking 16 bucks,
so full,
went back home and change to prepare for the chinese song writing and singing inter school compeition.
fun la. hahas. manage to see them in sec school U.
hahas. a theme i come up with,
took many photos, shall post them when im free,
den off back home, and study.
Nothing much now, except to study hard for exams now.
GO SA.

Never place urself in the middle of ur 5 fingers,
u either do it well on the top,
or down at the bottom.
#Jay
2046.

2008-08-20T21:37:00.002+08:00

back onto this lonely planet.
hmm, i always have this doubt in my mind,
been going through, and through,
like a broken record.
i really wondered, if u are dissatisfied with me,
towards the fact that,
im someone with experience,
and im not peforming up to the standard you wanted,
strictly speaking,
i think u dont really like me at all.
i dont know why did i felt like that,
but it was there all along,
with my trainings and stuffs.
Well, i guess i made it clear during the elections,
i didnt know if u hear it well,
or u chose not to hear it,
taking it as an excuse or wad.
i think that this is the way i am now,
and there is no more change to the past now.
and i agree im partly at fault for this situation now.
all i can do, is to strive harder,
hoping the results next year would satisfy u more.
I do not hate u or wadsoever,
but i am grateful that u let me learnt a lot from you.
i just feel treated differently.
Differently.

#JAy
2046.

2008-08-15T20:00:00.002+08:00

ni zen me she de wo nan guo
How could u bear to see me sad.

Zui ai ni de ren shi wo,
ni zhen me she de wo nan guo.

This song is old.
But Class.

2008-08-12T22:22:00.002+08:00

Back from movie.
Its wasnt a waste of money, it is going to be another was.
the movie was great man. watch until cry for a fourth movie.
(1.ye ban ge shen, qi yue qiao jiao ren, bu neng shuo de mi mi)
u guys should watch it, MONEY NOT ENOUGH 2!!!
It really deepy portrayed our singapore society as a general,
and jack neo is still as funny as ever!

Another song to portay my emoness.

Qing tian

The day when the wind blows,
i tried to hold your hand.
However, the winds blew our distance apart.
At last, i get to love you for another day,
but it seems like in the ending u still gave me a goodbye.

After moment of thought, i decided not to show up my emoness,
but to keep it right inside me.
I'll still be the same chee hao as what u see,
but i'll never be the same again. right inside.
This is my emo ground. Welcome.

And to the one out there,
dont have to worry about me ok.
it just another from like what i experience in the past,
What i Have told you all,
maybe i'll just need another few more months,
or year, i dunno. It would be better by then.
Its better this way, for me to take everything down,
better than so many people suffering.
u can put the blame on me(:

2008-08-11T20:23:00.001+08:00

let more music do the talking.
spamming it i guess.

Dear god - A7x

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
And where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no
Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

#Jay
2046.

2008-08-11T10:19:00.002+08:00

i just dont understand why,
i just receive it, we got a double combo here,
it just hurt so badly,
just go beyond describing it.
i guess, my heart just dont go along
what my mind feels.
Let the music do the talking den.

Guan Huai Fang Shi.
Emo movie makes a person cry a hell out of a shit ytd.

#_Depressionist_Jay
2008.

2008-08-10T21:01:00.004+08:00

Hibernation,
thats all i need,
1 or 2 months,
i never know.
Maybe till the day,
i see light in my life again.
#_Depressionist_Jay
maybe thats what im truly am,
in cyber,
or this cruel world.
This is what best describe me now.

Gui Ji

I will fall into daze,
and forget you,
leading me to close my eyes.
Another thought of your beautiful look,
before i starts to forget them.
The tear in my heart,
blurred my vision.
You will soon never see it again.

#Depressionist_Jay
2008.

2008-08-09T23:37:00.002+08:00

day by day,
deeper and deeper,
im falling more for you.
but im afraid,
im falling into a love cliff,
never ever to come up.
I feared of a rejection,
one in which would set me to deep sleep.
I love you.
But, do you?

This is the best song i can descirbe you with.

Ta de jie mao.

Your beautiful.

#Jay
2046.

2008-08-08T22:49:00.003+08:00

Back to blog.
nth much to sae.
just got this song stuck in my head.
BRYAN CHAN YAO FU,
jia you,
do us proud.

Fall For You

Because tonight will be the Nite that i will fall for you,
over again don make me change my mind,
i wont live to see another day and i swear its true,
because a girl like u is impossible to find,
impossible to find.

2008-08-06T19:41:00.001+08:00

Nowadays people been passing on, which lead me to continue this second topic i wanna talk about after peirong that post. This gonna be a emo one.

2nd disgusted signs of humans. We treat things for GRANTED. Especially PARENTS.
Now, people reading, especially youths out there, tell me honestly, is there a specific point in time during ur teenage life whereby u hope that ur parents would just f*ck off and die.
i would tell u honestly, at least out of 6 in 10 teenagers would agree to that. In Singapore, i definitely feel that its a trend going, for at least most of the teenagers i believe. When parents scold you about bad results, going out late with friends. U would definitely feel that they are a sore in the eye, why cant they just get out of my life?

Now, when they are gone, do u feel the blame, tell me. Now, let me tell u this, u would feel more pain than u ever experience in this whole human teenage life. The very first pain to hit u is guilt.

Alright, its time to be a bit emo, i have to bring this topic up once again. Ok, life example ok, Me myself. Let me bring you into my life story.
Hmm lets see, family of 5. I have 2 elder sisters, age of 5 and 10 years apart???
So sorry, i cant rmb the age difference of my eldest sister, from this u can see the worst relationship between sibling u can get, don even know my own sis age.
Ok, i have a mom, age 52, housewife, plays stocks occesionally at home. A WIDOW.
My dad. dead on jun 21st 2006. Ex-Mechanics in SATS ( a sub company of SIA) he was a smoker, with heart dieases, drink during festivals. don really do much straineous exercise.
Ok, lets start my life off from young. Ok, i have my 2 sisters, who are consistently good in their studies, eldest grad from chueng cheng high main, Sp, den NUS.
Other one who grad from duman high sec, tjc, den currently now in NTU going in her second year.
And me? oh, during kindergarden i was still alright, but once im in primary school, i feel i was doing fine, but not up to my dad standard, due to my poor english foundation ( i am in a chinese speaking family) so i didnt really had a good relationship with my dad, better with my mom i can sae.
And relationship with my eldest sis was worse, she refuse to teach neither my sis or me, believing on the basis that she did her studies on her own, (dont count tuition), and managed well.
So me and my second sis wasnt very good with our eldest sis. From this, first problem, my dad wasnt happy at all, siblings not very happy to help each other out, as compared to his childhood, where everone help each other out.
He had a theory in mind, that we should be treasuring our studies, becos when he was young, he would actually make it on to JC, but family no money. so he had to come out and work. So he tinks, cnt study den don study, come out and work, don waste his money. But he don really hopes us to be like him, working as a mechanics, earning very little income.
Now let me bring in the main conflicts i had with my dad, cos from what i see its like, i cost most of his anger.
Hmm, very first. age of 5, i like to play with fire, take small pieces of paper and start to burn it. I was caught like 2 times, final warning, still played. Kill myself, he saw the ashes left behind in the balcony, i was 6 then. He locked me out of the house, leaving me begging and crying till 1 am, even my neighbour begging wouldnt help. My mom let me in when he was asleep.

From P1 to P6, at least 4 times a year, i would make him angry. Becos of wad? bingo, my results, why, cos me and my 2 sis all in same pri school. Damai pri, compare my results and theirs, its like heaven and hell? i even got into the last class in p2, but amazing pop into the gifted class in p3. As being the boy of the family, i should be expected of better results, so clearly i have not being doing hard enough, and whenever results are back. It would always end of with screaming and crying of me. Actual speaking of my dad, he is actually, erm, a very guai lan person. when u cry, he would sae, u cry la, cry somemore, i haven beat u u cry. U cont crying la, i make sure u cry harder. U know, threatens. Most importantly, this is the phrase i would nvr forget. The next exam u don do well, i would drop u out of school immediately. I would always end up crying in my own bed after the lecture by him. Many of times, i would really really have suicide thoughts, of me killing myself, seriously u know, cos i tot that would not make my dad angry and make this a happy family.

P5 was another point of agitation. mid year exams, first paper, english, u guys know, eng don need study wan right. well, so i was happily watching tv while my dad was working, my mum wasnt very happy that i am not studying, as i am more afraid of my dad, i didnt take much of her nagging, to take it under notice when she CALLED my DAD at work. ( she always threaten to do that, but did not in the end).

I was really stunned, within like, 20 minutes, it was the worst part of my life. i was preparing for the worst, trying to rush as much assessments books as possible, hoping to tell him that i did something before i watched tv ( in fact tv was actually banned for me during exams periods. ) Something amazed me, he took less than 20 minutes to reach home, which actually in fact he need more than 3 hrs to reach home, as he have to finish his shift and take 2 bus ride before he can reach home. Conclusion: he took a cab home without even finishin his shift.

Very first thing he did when he reach home, he took my school bag, took a lift down, and threw my bad beside the big rubbish chute, and he said, u dont have to study anymore, if u dare to bring this back home, u dont need to enter, throughout the whole progress, i was chasing him, pulling the bag and begging him not to throw it, telling him i want to study, with so many people in the lift, and me bare-footed. Tears just kept flowing out of my eyes, and i dont know why. I pick up the bag, trying to bring it home, and he just stood right in front of the door, saying that if i dare to bring the bag home, he would chase me out of the house, calling me a good for nothing.

And years go on, till the very day. June 21st 2006. I was at anglican high, attending my robotics workshop. While working on my robot, i put my phone aside. Coming back to surprise, i saw 55 missed call from my phone, all directing to my house. I was like. WTF. Called back, my uncle pick up, and i was like, how come my uncle is at my hse for no reason? Den he told me, quickly come home, something bad happen, i asked. YOUR DAD JUST PASSED away.

I was like shock? at first, no tears at all, i tried to hold. Until the very moment, i was the first among the 3 children, to reach home, to see a dead man right in front of his eyes, he was like, in pain, as u can really sees it in his eyes, unbearable pain. From then, tears roll down my eyes, and i just cried like freak, keep calling out to him.

Worst even all, when the undertaker came, they carried him, his body was like. Totally stiff, and im likeCRYING more out, than ever.

The rest was the wake, sleepless nights for 4 days 3 nights, crying beside his coffin, as i never knew it would be so early to say goodbye.

Last of all, the every lasting pain is during the cremation, i believe when ur relative dies u just see the coffin got burn up. But when it comes to someone ur really close to. Its like ur seeing him setting up on fire right in front of you. days later of bones is what is remain. And u nvr believe that This would happen to you at all.

At all....

Alright, need to stop here, cannot stop my waterworks alr. Everytime of saying him would makes me tear.

Cause here in my heart,
there's a picture of us,
together forever,
and unfaded and unbroken.
DAD.
i miss you.

#_Depressionist_Jay
2046.

2008-07-30T19:18:00.000+08:00

alright.
back to blog.
past few days,
like 110% productive.
lol.
chiong a lot of work.
hope can catch up in time.
and own all the goals we set.
(:

#Jay
2046.

2008-07-21T00:07:00.004+08:00

today marks the end of the legends.
tml marks the starts of the new batch of legacy, yet to be known.
born in the making.

this is the best of heath ledger.
best joker i ever seen.
RIP.
Batman : The Dark Knight.
6/5 stars.
the extra one is for him.
the LEGEND.

its either u die off as a legend, or u live long enough to become a villain.

#JAy
2046.

2008-07-16T20:24:00.001+08:00

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	78%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Religious	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|	16%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Humanitarian	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Avoidant	\|\|	10%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Family drive	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|	16%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Honor	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Thriftiness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%

Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
personality test by similarminds.com

This is my personality test(:

#jAy
2046.

2008-07-14T20:37:00.000+08:00

this is hilarious!!!

2008-07-08T00:55:00.000+08:00

hong jie ur still the best.
lol

SAJC.
GO.

#JAy
2046.

2008-07-05T18:34:00.002+08:00

that small little boy told me that he couldnt see properly,
so i brought him to see doctor,
but everything seems to be fine.
i told him.
EH, trying to be funny izzit?
he told me that he dont understand why
nowadays he see things are getting slowly.
From then i know,
his going faster and faster.

Quote from initial D the movie.

KEEP BEING THE NON - STOP CHAMPION.

#Jay
2046.

2008-07-03T01:01:00.000+08:00

this is true laughter

2008-06-30T20:35:00.002+08:00

back to blog.
hahas.
had a fun day ytd.
ktv with pang sai, oiley and fartmole.
hahas. was fun though. even tio bully by 3 of them. hahas. ( also got bully them a bit la)
hahas.
hmm, was looking to peirong blog, saw something meaning and had a tot over it.

Society has brought us up, well and good, bring us technology advance and growth in human races. And also has brough us many digusted actionas and means. Many of us had been selfish, not being seriously caring about what is happening around the world. As in we around only tend to be sad when its only something that happen to us. Yes its true up to a very huge extend, in this society we are being stress up with work, play and relationships, in ways to handle them so that things are turning out in a better situation in the end.
But look at the other side of the world. People in the 3rd country are suffering, even to have a simple meal. To make themselves living on another day, they have to feed on tree bark, grass, muddy water in order to keep themselves alive. They are stressing themselves way over stuffs needed for essential survival, and yet we are thinking of ways to handle situation on things that are unnessary for simple survival. Yes, this comparison might be quite untrue, due to globalisation and urbanization of the society, if given the technology they would have been in a better living right now.
But now lets look at this closely, at the recent case of sichuan earthquake and the myanmar cyclone, compare the families that was being attack by the diasters and those who are living well in Singapore, would they really give much a damn to show sympathy and care to those affect, well, i can tell u this, they would just donate to them, thinking of karma, if i did something good today, i would get something back in return someday, doublefold or even twice in return. And now lets put in the situation whereby u are someone who lives in the area affected. With you relatives who are closed to being affected. would u donate generously to help them survive the ordeal, or just to donate with sympathy? think about it, people are just concern when it comes to a close connection to them or something with will benefit them, then they would be willing to give a helping hand.
Giving me a example that whenever there is a diaster where other countries would help them to survive the ordeal and its out of goodwill. Come on, i can give u at least 10 reasons why they wanted to help. 2 very good would be.
EH, i help u during ur need, so u owe me one favour.
Eh, everybody see, i help them lei, im so kind u know.

This so called signs of goodwill is just ways to cover our disgusted actions of hoping for something in return.

7 DAYS OF. The last RIDE.
BURST IT OFF.
CEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!
AIZAI.

Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

u'll always be a part of me

#Jay
2046.

2008-06-30T01:31:00.004+08:00

2008-06-25T17:46:00.002+08:00

FINISHED through the HALF FIGHT.
down to the SECOND HALF.

okay la.
the papers these few days.
those who are down, cause didnt do well, look ahead, there are more.
THROUGH THE FIRE AND FLAMES.

work it, do it, mix it, makes us, harder, better. STRONGER.

Many links are up.
hahas.
finally got time to touch them.
alrightts, back to revision.
AIZAI!!!

#Jay
2046.

2008-06-24T21:27:00.000+08:00

u decided to stay here with me.
no coincidence, it was meant to be.

#Jay
2046

2008-06-22T01:42:00.000+08:00

behold.
wad your abt to see is ultimately the true spirit of damai.
highly addictive and funny.
enjoy.

2008-06-21T17:25:00.001+08:00

progressing towards another milestone,
breaking another limit,
PUSHING ON.
fighting for your honor,
NEVER BACK DOWN.
how much can u take.
its all about the LAST BURST.

This is just the beginning yet,
prepare for WAR.
its not about the medal,
it about ur pride and diginity,
on the LINE.
take them DOWN.

#Jay
2046.

2008-06-12T21:09:00.003+08:00

alrights.
back to blog after so long.
hmm.
firstly, just came back from class chalet, wasnt feeling well la. after all that medicine i had yesterday. so didnt turn up for training, was too dizzy liao, cannot make it.
IT WAS FUN(:
anyway, one more week to CT, hmm, is like 3/4 prepared for it, still long way to go la, hope that i can really do well, much better than my class tests.
anyway.
its 23 days.
To THE D-DAY.
FIGHT FOR IT GUYS.
WE DESERVE THIS.

to the dearest, its been long i seen you, and when the moment i saw you.
it just make me realize how much i been missing you,
day and nights, sleepless without ur contact,
i was busy, but i couldnt try to forget,
ur undeniable beauty.
ur the only one.
#Jay
2046.

2008-06-01T20:27:00.002+08:00

SUNDOWN marathon
its tiring i guess, not being able to have a good sleep after training, and was posted to a very good for sleeping area, slack with nelson, talk, crap and played. hahas.
whats really inspired me is this ang moh, who is a handicap, even though he could not make it on his legs, he still perserved on with his modified bicycle, its 84km, not a not distance, but he did it, even though it was long and bearing through the night, i really admired his spirit on pushing on.
thank you sir, for enlighting me.

(p.s sorry for pangseh ernest, jonathan and aaron, was too tired. hahas)

#Jay
2046.

been a long long time, ever since i had a long thought in my mind.
Its been long i guess, finally able to some how settle down in this fast pace environment, politics is everywhere, is case u didn't notice. i do not know wad to sae, but, it seems like that the way it is, i choose to believe that it isnt the case, but all these facts that is laying down the table, it seems to be this way.
I always thought that u are the greatest yet i ever seen, i admired you, respected you, but to find out that u are the opposite, the biggest unreasonably yet i ever seen, i do know know wad to sae. or comment, that u could just come up with this kind of things.
your a man well doing well on ur social ladder, or should i just sae, ur foundation is millions of bodies, who are ur friends.
U dont deserve what ur enjoying now.
Watch your back. i'll be right behind u.

2008-05-30T13:12:00.006+08:00

When you got BIG dreams
Don't listen to what nobody say and don't let nobody TURN you away
When you got BIG dreams
Keep your eyes on the LANE don't EYE to the way side reach for the FINISHING LINE.

2008-05-26T22:06:00.000+08:00

i just love love love his bodt rotation with kicking.!
TOTAL SHOICKNESS.

#Depressionist_Jay
2008.

2008-05-17T19:26:00.002+08:00

lets see what i have achieved for the week.
MONDAY.
hmm, lesson lesson lesson.
must thank ms kotwani for the birthday song.hahas.
den it was LJ. hahas. learning journey, don get it wrong,
so high on the bus, crapping with jiahao and ishwar.
and thanks for the birthday song with the ah mo orh mi tuo fuo remix la 08s08. hahas.
parliament hse.
blah blah, quite interesting la, not sae very boring also, but everything was getting excited for the rugby finals.
got squeezed in the lift twice lo. damn sian. hahas.
so after LJ ends, all chionged to the padang, which was just beside us, leaving me a christmas tree celebration.
hmm, sajc boys fought hard enough, but did not win, its ok, u did proud to the school. living the saints spirit.
can really see how the saints spirit travel and last, u can see mum and dad who are fellow ex saints still came down to support the game even though they already left the school, but the feeling of being a saint is so strong. i like it. hahas.
i shall come back to be a ex saint for CANOEING(:
den was dinner with wen hui, li ru, gushi, oliver, jiahao, eddie and gabriel.
was fun la. a lot of crap there, created new scandal (sorry koon zui, u have the step aside for a moment).
went on for movie session with sanche and kenneth,
long time nvr meet up with them liao. they still the same after 10 years. hahas.
iron man was still good even after a second watch. hahas.(:
headed and reached home, ard 1? also screwed for phy test, mr chan was kind enough to let the class to take the test on fri. TYTY(:
TUESDAY.
eh. nth much la. didnt attend training. Family matters.
WEDNESDAY.
lesson lessons, more lessons.
MISSED training again due to the stupid national security talk, dunno why i have to attend that, but its still fun and knowledgeable la, the lieutandant? was like, with evil laughter, but i rather row than attend.(:
another session of mass taupok by the j1s canoeist, lol. hilary trick me to talk the money while i was getting taupok, basket. taupok my leg instead. lol. pain. nice present they brought la. a optical mouse of shape of zhahor in lingerie, (stress reliever la hoh leon) lol. got slap like 7 times for guessing it wrongly. lol. i only realise wad it was until i opened it, i tot it was a heart shaped optical mouse, (stress reliever mah)
THURSDAY.
lessons again. SPARTAN and long dist run, shoick training i can sae. adding more weights, we're like dragon ball. caryying turtle shells. hahas. NOTHING CAN STOP ME FROM IMPROVING.(:
FRIDAY.
was waiting for this day to come, lol, but it was long and bearing, left early to make passport for the trip to taiwan.
SATURDAY.
TRAINING! i missed the water, lol, feeling was so great, got the feel of regata k1 back, and back to k2 with ce yong, but a bit sad la, he is taking with jack for k2 for interschool, dunno who should i take with. Im in a blank.

Photos will be up next time, too busy to upload them(:

An jing - jay chou (remix, regatta version)

Zhi sheng xia paddle pei wo row le yi tian
Shui jiao de regatta
An Jing de jiu jiu de
Wo xiang ni yi biao xian de fei chang ming bai
Wo dong wo ye zhi dao
Ni mei you she bu de
Ni shuo ni ye hui nan guo wo bu xiang xin
he ni hua guo chuang ye zhi shi cheng jin
Xi wang ta shi zhen de bi wo hai yao ai ni
Wo cai hui bi zi ji li kai

Ni yao wo shuo duo nan kan
Wo gen ben bu xiang fen kai
Wei she me hai yao wo yong wei xiao lai dai guo
Wo mei you zhe zhong tian fen
bao rong ni ye jie shou ta
Bu yao dan xin de tai duo
Wo hui yi zhi hao hao guo

Ni yi jin yuan yuan li kai
Wo ye hui man man zou kai
Wei she me wo lian fen kai dou qian jiu zhe ni
Wo zhen de mei you tian fen
An jing de mei zhe me kuai
Wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni
Shi ying wei wo tai ai ni

Black humor - jay chou (remix version, paddling)
fen kai
shi yin wei hua de hen man?
shi yin wei hua de bu hao?
shi xin li qi le zuo yong?

ni shuo
ku xiao chang chang pei zhe ni
zai yi qi you dian mian qiang
gai bu gai xian zai xiu le wo

bu xiang tai duo
wo xiang yi ding shi wo ting cuo nong cuo gao cuo
bai tuo
wo xiang shi ni de nao dai you wen ti

sui bian shuo shuo
qi shi wo zao yi jing cai tou kan tou bu xiang duo shuo
zhi shi wo pa yan lei cheng bu zhu

bu dong
ni de hei se you mo
xiang tong
que you zai kao dao wo
shuo san
ni xiang hen jiu le ba?
wo bu xiang chai chuan ni

dang zuo
shi ni kai de wan xiao
xiang tong
que you zai kao dao wo
shuo san
ni xiang hen jiu le ba?
bai gei ni de hei se you mo
wo de ren zhen bai gei hei se you mo

gui ji - jay chou (remix, k2 separation version)

Verse 1:
zen me yin cang wo de bei shang
shi qu ni de di fang
ni de hou ying san de cong mang
wo yi jing gen bu shang

Verse 2:
bi shang yan jing hai neng kan jian
ni li qu de hen ji
zai yue reservoir xia yi zhi zhao xun
na xiang nian de shu du

ru guo shuo fen kai shi ku tong de qi dian
na zai zhong dian zhi qian wo yuan yi zai hua yi bian
xiang yao dui ni shuo de bu gan shuo de hua
hui bu hui you ren ke yi ming bai

Chorus:
wo hui fa zhe dai ran hou wang ji ni
jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan
xiang zhe na yi tian yi you ren dai ti
rang wo bu zai xiang nian ni

wo hui fa zhe dai ran hou wei wei xiao
jie zhe jin jin bi shang yan
you xiang le yi bian ni wen rou de strokes
zai wo wang ji zhi qian

xin li de yan lei mo hu le shi xian
ni yi kuai kan bu jian

all out of love- olivia ong ( its much nicer,ex-damaian) (remix, k2 missing version)

I'm lying alone with my hands on the paddle
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could combine your strength and my balance
For times when our boat feels so slow
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

Chorus:
I 'm all out of strength, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of strength, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and row with me on
Away from this long lonely lanes
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I charge 500 metre now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please row with me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

Chorus

Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

Chorus(3x)

these are just random thoughts, no hard feelings(:
fun and creation.

days by days,
feelings grow.

#Depressionist_Jay
2008.

2008-05-15T22:23:00.003+08:00

guess who she is.

pictures paints a thousand words.
im still damn busy.
wo hen mang.

#_Depressionist_Jay
2008.

2008-05-14T23:36:00.002+08:00

no more bus. all mrt, i can't imagine mrt in front of my hse. reservoir. lol. hahas. post abt birthday celebration when im free. tonnes of video and photos(;

2008-05-11T11:40:00.002+08:00

back from sleeping up well.

FRIDAY.
hmm, lesson was boring as well, good progress for me bah. i've improve greatly on my maths.
hahas.
den went for reading club. hahas. ok la. quite fun. like the activities and the teachers.
main highlight was rachel play.
hahas. it was good! linking the whole main theme with short stories, showing our lives right before the play.
hmm, before my i reaching. wa. jux one comment, can the taxi driver in Singapore go and memorise the directory guide and brush up their english, wa liao, im nvr ever want to see that uncle again la. donno how to go still attitude me, basket, like im suppose to know whr the place is like that. know liao still hire cab for wad! lol. before and after the play was cam-whore, lol, hahas, found out that hilary cnt take picture with his eyes open. hahas. den went for supper with daryl, louis and leon, famous 85 ba chor mee, hahas, miss it so much(:
(p.s hilary sae rachel chio wors!!! refer to his latest post. hahas)

SATURDAY.
wa. wake up early in morning, went to bishan for sundown marathon, 31st of may night to 1 june morning, basket, if im selected for the trip to taiwan, den i bu si die, lol. i tink if im selected, im gonna give it up lo, cos season is near, don wan to dissapoint any of my seniors and teachers, especially coach, he has high expectation on me(: the briefing was stupid la, the guy juz read wad is on the paper he gave us, and its not in details yet, lol. den took 59 down for training, was feelings that good, cos didnt eat much, but still manage to survive la. warm up and charge down, found out that k1 wasnt that bad, as compare to my last time, i would burn out in the end, now can finish it with a little burst. (: den was k2 with tzetian, not bad la. fast(: i like.
GREATEST MOTIVATION for now.
hahas. im gonna try to row with him as much as possible lo. hahas. his our secret weapon? lol. his gonna be a great help in my rowing skills ba. THANKS JIAO LIAN!
after training went off early, didnt join them for running, went back home and quickly rush out for dinner. den off to sleep! (:

day by day, feelings been developing.
i donno if i should mention this to you.
i miss you terribly.

i donno, if i should sae this.
i still need you.
and i believe,
we can make miracle together.
but im not sure,
if we're in this together.
would you?

shen ri kuai le,
wo dui zi ji shuo,
la zhu dian le,
ji mo liang le,
shen ri kuai le,
lei ye rong le,
wo yao xie xie ni,
ni gei de,
ni na zhuo de yi qie,
hai ai ni,
dai yi dian hen,
hai yao shi jian,
cai neng ping heng,
ri lian shang hen,
hua mian chong shen.
zhu wo shen ri kuai le.

#Depressionist_Jay
200.8

2008-05-08T22:06:00.002+08:00

wed nth much to blog abt.
only have DODO from the girls soccer match.
hahas, aiya. should have shown u all how CHIO she is. hahas.
lol. anyway. sa girls soccer was like owning the whole match, MJC didnt cross over to the other side like for less than 5 times. hahas.
good job la girls, u did us proud. hit DODO badly. hahas.

THURS.
hmm.
nth much, P.E, a bit fed up, but nvm, den was boring lessons boring lessons.
CHEM SPA,
basket, i got penalized like.... wah. sprayed KMnO4 on my shirt la. zzz. den calculation, cos of the 0.01, all gone. zzz. screwed up.

TRAINING.
wah.
shoick la, finally work it out after so long man.
3 rounds ard cemetry, spartan 300, pulll ups.
NTH ELSE can STOP me.
from aiming to be.
THE NON-STOP CHAMPION.
it doesnt matter wad they sae.
we got a lot more better days.

#_Depressionist_Jay
2008.

just give me 2 more mins,
to allow me to freeze the memory in time.
dont ever melt that tearfrom ur eyes.

2008-05-06T22:53:00.001+08:00

BEST!!!

emo.

New photos guys.
enjoy.
(:

#Depressionist_Jay
2008.

2008-05-06T20:55:00.002+08:00

wee hoo.
back to blog again.
wa. see the font damn sian again. lol. today school was ok bah.
started off with a very LONG morning assembly, police rich, present one award bring one big big background to school. hahas. den was PE. captain ball again, slack lo, hahas. GABRIEL rough la, try to make me fall. i got season. plz plz don make me injured. lol.
CHEM lecture.
nth much to talk abt la.
BREAK.
wa. basket, im dead fed up with that stupid auntie who served me twice, she always make wrong order, den give me so little portion, basket. heng the boss give me more, if not im not gonna visit western food again. lol. i shall make sure i will not get served by her AGAIN.
den was GP.
so sorry to the grp presenting, pe make me too tired, i fell asleep! =X awwwwwwwwwww. mummy dont be sad. hahas.
PHYSICS.
wa. suk ki. hahas. mr chan i like you. hahas. fierce. lol. damn funny. SUK KI. hahas. first time hear a teacher sae that. lol
Maths.
slack la. but got study for test for a bit, don wan to fail.
PW lecture.
omg. i slept thru out lo.
Maths test.
i did should be able to do well, more than pass i hope.
ahahs.
(:

#Depressionist_Jay
2008.

to my dear canoiest.
i dunno why u did that today.
i tink your class has quite a influence over you.
good or bad.
i dont wish to comment.

2008-05-05T22:28:00.002+08:00

back to blog.
lol.
die die also cnt change the font of blogger. seriously it sucks la. so de bland. lol. hahas. i prefer kristen ITC, so much nicer.
ok. today class was ok. i was studying on the bus. amazing! hahas. first time lo, cos cnt sleep in the bus, den study lo.
CHEM LECTURE.
wah today lecture terrible, missing this missing that, then topic jump here and that. calculations also wrong. zzz. hahas. i dunno why, i corrected the lecturer den i hand shaking like shit.
Physics tutorial.
relieve teacher was ok la, but very evil, took lim zhen tut and make her cry. T_T.
awwwwwwwwwwwwww. he should have warn her first?
GP and PW, bit boring la, but first time got praised by ms kotwani, lol, spotted the LKY fallacy, hasty generalisation. hahas, pw was still ok, much better with the group now.(:
ME.
wa. best, i liked the first video, so motivating. LESSON LEARNT. GO THE EXTRA MILE, STEPP out of your COMFORT ZONE!
hahas.
den was chinese,
as boring again.
TRAINING.
hmm,
ok la.
back to heavy training again.
i miss gym.
hahas.
time to build my muscles back to shape again for a div.
hahas.
i wanna beat myself, with never ending limits(:
after that was fun la.
hahas.
piggy backed KIAT YAO.
wa, your a blessing, so nice to carry you.
hahas.
den was 100 push up, cos nvr bring towel.
REMEMBERED.(:
logging off with more photos.

IM STILL.
#_Depressionist_Jay
2008.

to come to think of it.
its now so fast.
5th of may already,
many things are coming up.
a div, j2s are stepping down soon.
a bit of panick there.
hope able to motivate the team.
with my DSA spirits and techniques(:
birthday is coming.
so is common test.

2008-05-04T19:27:00.005+08:00

more photos to come.
on random

#Depressionist_Jay
2008.

2008-05-04T00:59:00.000+08:00

edited some nice photos.
(:

2008-04-29T21:47:00.003+08:00

PHOTOS. ENJOY.
AH WANG SO EMO today.
THAT SCENE WAS VERY WELL DONE.
(:

2008-04-22T21:12:00.003+08:00

im back.
loll.
feelings much better than ytd now.
blew all my anger into strength for morning training today.
hahas.
all the way partner!(;
hahas.
PE was fun.
lol.
but a bit piss off.
cnt get the thingy right.
lol.
physics SPA.
gged la.
mr im keep looking at me.
hahas.
his quite hilarious sometimes la.
hahas.
fun to work with(;
chem test also gged.
10 marks gone.
others where will score full marks.
lol.
T_T
hahas.
today was the start of student council campaign.
quite lame la.
lol.
but created a atmosphere round in school.
lol.
anyway.
jia you for those who running for council.
ERIC AND DARSSHINI?
(:

ZHAM ZHAM ZHAM.
theres no limit to our love boat.
ai xin ni luo he.
(LOVELY NELO)
its the rower be4 the boat.
Quote: give you milo, kopi-0, u cnt row, also not fast. hahas.

Wo xu yao ni de ai.
LOVE.

#JAy
2046

2008-04-21T22:30:00.002+08:00

ho ho.
totally pissed off
totally pissed off.
wa.
how could u do this kind of things to me.
this is wad i get.
for a kind thought.
wa.
kns.
training was violent but fun today.
i beginning to see a lot of blogs today.
lol
tunrning my pissing off into strength.
to power up my uber k2
NELO.

#Jay
2046.

2008-04-20T23:03:00.002+08:00

HOOOO!!!
im back to blog.
hahas.
from a very very tired race.
hahas.
lol.
although it was tired.
but it was fun.
(don worry ce yong, we still have 3 more months to improve more and OWN!!)
hahas.
had a great great time with the j2 today during dinner.
i laugh till buay ta han la.
hahas.
races for these 2 days been learning a lot.
it was tired and fun, with my team around.
hahas.
eh.
don know wad else to blog eh.
j1s whose reading this.
there is a water training tml instead of gym.
plz bring swimming attire. and googles.
(;

#Jay
2046.

2008-04-15T17:57:00.002+08:00

alrightts. back to blog for a long long time.
so sorry.
was busy with camp homework and stuffs.
arghh.
life so hectic now.
i still hardly catch a breath.
lol.
camp was fun though.
manage to bond better with the j2 and the new j1s???
lol.
hahas.
the WOW!!! guai-laness,
i like.
lol.
hahas.
and for your info.
my team is name.
team chee.
lol
because of me.
hahas.

school was sian today.
wa.
freaking fire drill eat into my break.
wa liao.
den ji tao chiong canteen,
was late for lesson for 10 mins.
but kotwani was kind enough,
to let us in.
hahas.
she was angelic(:
lol.
den after that.
was sian sian sian.
lesson lesson lesson.
i was looking forward to the interview bah.
hahas.
from the wo bao www.omy.com.sg
hahas.
rmb to look out for me in the newspaper and video.
hahas.
i promote canoe like HOOO!.
but forget to mention jonathan.
hahas.
(:

chionging PA paddles championship this coming weekend.
all the way guys(:

#Jay
2046.

2008-04-01T15:23:00.002+08:00

back to blog.

Lets talk about njcc aka national junior canoeing championship. Wa, race of my life man. hahas, finally got the trill of it, getting more and more motivated. Enjoyed the race and most of it, except a few opponent (u know wad i mean) the X** L** ones. lol. hahas. Few lessons drawn from the competitions itself la. My stamina sucks la, lol hahas, so sorry ce yong, didnt manage to pia and zham with the xia lan ones. hahas. i hope we'll do better in the next race. hahas. Another achievement for me la, as first time in sprint races i got myself into all the finals on the events i took part. and the timing was incredible, breaking my personal best, flashing with a new 1.55.32 for k2 500m, hahas. Lastly i must thank jiao lian, mr kieu, ms ong and the team for being there, giving extra care for me la. And muz thank eugene and ce yong for motivating me, especially ce yong, u really motivated me that night!!! Hahas, i happy i rowed with him bah, just with 6 to 7 short trainings, we manage to do well on regata, which everyone believe its a hard boat to use, and came up with very good results on it, as compared to last time, for a long coodination with my teamates, i only came up with a best timing of 2.05 for k2 500m. Even though i didnt win any medal(sad), but i definitely feel that both of us have did well, if we ever wanted a medal, we would have strategies for the c finals, in which we would have gotten 2 medals back home for presentation today(: we went for out best and we're happy with it. ALL THE WAY. CE YONG!!(:

Talk about othern stuffs next time, got tonnes of work to catch up and pictures to post on NJCC(:

#JAy
2046

2008-03-22T11:10:00.002+08:00

(:
back to blog.
wah.
hectic weekends
with so many homework.
but a lot of trainings(;
hahas.
been training a lot recently.
i tink been quit buffed up now.
lol.
hmm.
ytd went to shop with hilary, louis, and raymond for a team bag.
we went to queenstown,
MILES AWAY!
lol.
slack talk crap slack.
hahas.
manage to a find a nike 'bomb'
hahas.
hope the uncle manage to find 20pcs.
and we can have a great discount.
lol.
sae nice clothes there.
its time for shopping again!!!
with great fortune.
wah.
zzz.
i look like for NS men now la.
wah.
RAYMOND decided to cut G.I
so he got us so motivated.
we decided to cut too.
hahas.
BROS for LIFE!!!
hahas.
lol.
RAYMOND is the da ge liao.
hahas.
lol
=-=
i miss my hair.
BABY.
COME BACK.

#Jay
2046.

2008-03-16T16:51:00.001+08:00

ok hmm.
long time nvr blog liao.
hmm.
school starting soon again.
zzz.
wa.
tonnes of hw haven finish.
hahas.
very sian.
lol
been browsing thru friends blog.
hmm.
been missing them lately.
while they are out having fun.
im mugging.
lol.
bo bian.
thats the diary of a jc student.
wad else u expect.
lol.
upcoming tests.
exams.
competitions.
killing!
lol.
i tink my birthday is going to be burnt too.
lol.
hope to blog again soon bah.
off to rush my work.
as ever.

As long as im breathing, i'll be waiting.
I CAN'T HELP BUT WAIT.

#Jay
2046.

2008-03-06T12:54:00.002+08:00

yello.
wee hoo.
so long nvr blog le.
lol.
time to update some things bah.
first of all.
i got 10th position in SINGAPORE CANOE MARATHON.
o.0
something that i achieved.
after 2 years again.
lol.
hmm.
let me see.
got quite a lot of things to talk abt bah.
kk.
lets talk abt studies first.
wah.
JC.
gone case la.
damn stress.
so much work to catch up with.
my march holidays are burnt off with trainings and schoolwork man.
hahas.
can sae goodbye to that.
hahas.
zzz.
hope i still can cope bah.
lol.
haiz.
friendship?
hmm,
guess its bound to fail like singapore and malaysia.
haiz.
just dont understand
why ppl like to give empty promises.
haiz.
i dunno why.
when u cant even do that thing properly
u promises ppl so well.
giving them high hope that u can do it well.
but mistakenly to throw him or her off the cliff without even noticing.
way to go.
hmm,
i still stick with my stand.
those who are true to me.
im always loyal and true to them
u know who you are.
i dont wish to mention abt it.
hmm.
up coming competitions
MR500 this coming sat and sun.
at lower seletar reservoir.
national junior championship on 28 and 29 of march.
PA 300 on mid april.
friendly match with cjc, mjc, maybe rjc?
lol.
zzz
dilemma dilemma.
dunno whether.
can i do it.
love at first sight???
lol.

#Jay
2046.

2008-02-25T22:49:00.000+08:00

DOROTHY.
i link YOU!!!

KAYAK.
TRASHING YOU LIKE IM OWNING IT.
MASTER.

#JAy
2046.

2008-01-28T15:54:00.000+08:00

These video really inspired me a lot.
OWNAGE.

Dear lord,
thanks you for this medal i got.
to be the best.
Fight for your honour,
fight for your life.

#Jay
2046.

2008-01-25T22:11:00.000+08:00

IM GONNA MUGGED.
IM GONNA ROW.
IM GONNA BE TIRED.
IM GONNA SWEAT.
IM GONNA HATE.
IM GONNA WIN.
IM GONNA ELIMINATE.
IM GONNA.
OWN.

Sajc,
a start of life afresh.
a ground of fight i will face.
to survive.
my hope.
my faith.
all in one.

Dear lord,
thank you for blessing me with wisdom.
to be able to enter st andrew.
to cont to do you proud.
to show that i can achieve.
as long as i conceive.
and have faith in you.
i want to go strong.
i want to be the best.
together.
theres nothing i can achieve.

SINGAPORE CANOE MARATHON 2008.
GET ~~OWNED.~~ GOLD.
at 8.46 am

#JAy
2046.

2008-01-10T21:17:00.000+08:00

2 weeks.
and im still surviving.
tots of giving up is strong.
but i will stay still.
to get wad i wanted.
46 stories.
up and down.
3km run.
18 push ups.
8 sets of sprints.
100 push ups.
nothing can break me down.
still surviving.
ON.

As the tough gets going.
the going gets tough.

#Jay
2046.

2007-12-25T22:01:00.000+08:00

back to blog.
right after so long.
so long.
been training.
been working.
been nua-ing
been slacking.
been winning.
been losing.
so long.
to tink that so was the holiday.
to tink of meeting up more often.
to tink of working together.
bringing us closer.
INSTEAD.
it ended up this way.
a way which we never ever wanted this kind of things to happen.
a way which i rather tink i should have stay up in seoul garden.
a way which i really don not wish to see.
a way which i hope.
we would still stay together as one.
but it seems.
so cold.
so cold.
how am i.
gonna face this.

WHAT HURTS THE MOST.
WAS BEING TOO CLOSE.

#Jay
2046.

2007-12-06T01:07:00.000+08:00

more more.
emo emo.
lol.
hmm.
i guess.
it shall be it bah.
even the last line of defence.
is cracking up.
haiz.
maybe things are suppose to be this way.
me coming into the picture.
is just.
extra?
hmm.
i should leave?
and return,
things to the way it is.
i dunno wad to say.
maybe wad i did.
was not reconigse bah.
i really.
dont even know.
wads going on.
during work.
and btw ourselves.
haiz.
);

and YOU.
decided not to accept.
i guess?

#Jay
2046.

2007-12-03T23:21:00.000+08:00

emo emo emo.
things are getting bad to worse.
zzz.
i dunno wad to sae la.
so de.
haiz.
DISAPPOINTED.
not my care anyway.
juz.
all the best bah.
dont ever get hurt.
again.
emo.
#_Depressionist_Jay

#Jay
2046.
it shall always be.

2007-11-25T23:45:00.001+08:00

time to change some emo music in the blog(:

guess the song.
if you guys know.

#JAy
2046.

2007-11-24T01:29:00.000+08:00

There was a merman.
who led a peaceful life.
with work studies and play.
balance nicely.
there was once a time.
he was too playful.
he came into the land of the forbidden.
where he was told not to come on.
the land of the humans.

yea.
it wasnt like.
love at first sight.
but.
she was definitely special in his heart.
he could feel it.
but she was juz an ordinary girl.

in order to get into contact with her.
he transformed into a human.
with the price that.
he would not be able to become a merman anymore.
and he could only stay up to 5 hrs on the land.

and then.
he met her.
made friends.
and becomed close with her.
until den.
he confessed.
about the feelings.
he had for her.
the girl was shocked.
didnt know wad to do.
she tried to give him excuses.
she was into the same sex.
lesbian.
he didnt believe.
and persist.

until den.
the girl keep giving him attitude.
hoping that one day.
the guy would give up.
and become friends again.

but that didnt happen.
the guy was totally hurt.
he tried.
but he failed.
he didnt wan the girl to suffer.
to bring all this trouble.
juz to make him give up.

and so he did.
that night.
he did not return to the sea.
but to go on and wrote a song.
in this musical box.

he manage to finish the song he wrote.
it was suppose to be sang to her on her birthday.
but it wont be happening anymore.
as he is already panting for breath.
trying to hand on.
be4 he give up.
Upon his last breath.
he manage to came across a musical shop.

he gave the box to the shop owner.
only to the promise that he would play it and put it on display.
everyday.
regardless rain or shine.
and he vanish.
without a sound.
he was dead.

the girl did not tink much.
only to tink that maybe the guy had given up.
breaking all contacts with her.
but didnt she realised.
he die for.
HER LOVE.

Somewhere on this street.
the faithful tune is still so beautiful.
playing on.
this story.
about a one sided love.
can you hear it?

this story might sound familiar or edited.
but to me.
it is so.
IMPORTANT.
can you hear it?
the faitful tunes playing in the musical box.
with one or two fins trapped beneath the box.
waiting to be heard and exposed.

#JAy
2046.

2007-11-20T02:10:00.000+08:00

prom is fun!!!
shall post pics tml.
(:

#JAY
2046.

2007-11-18T00:47:00.000+08:00

wee hoo.
back to blog.
one day nvr come home le.
zzz.
went over night mahjong.
and lots of shopping.
with lots of talking.
abt wads been happening recently.
ppl are going for tp rawks.
and some are doing last min shopping for prom.
while im thinkin.
wad is happening.
that had fallen apart.
lol.
haiz.
i really dunno wad to sae.
really have to agree with wad kevin is trying to bring up bah.
i guess this shall be the end of it lo.
it all not united at all.
how to carry on.

#JAy
2046.

2007-11-16T01:37:00.000+08:00

hoo hoo.
update update.
hahas.
after reading friends blogg.
back to blog again.
well.
bo jio again today.
lol.
aiya.
dont really much care la.
some of you are juz contacting me for the sick of soccer.
arh.
wadever.
i dont care really that much.
i gonna stop keying them for eu.
sooner or later.
see the situation.
lol.
wan all go jun dere lo.
i dont mind.
lol.
wadever.

and to my dearest secret friend.
yea.
i know its not your fault.
ur not the main ones deciding who goes and whose not.
i know.
juz wanna let u know.
even quarrel so many times.
ur still my friend eh.
i'll respect you too(:
i dont care wad other might sae.
i por u or wadever.
juz wanna thank you.
for the 2 year of friendship.
i'll last long.
with everything i could.
and for this outing things.
i dont really freaking wanna care.
it makes me so de.
dulan.
why should i.
spend so much effort.
for them?
when they dont give a damn abt me.
aiya.
don wanna cont.

#JAY
2046.
3 bo jios.
and counting still